~Oh sya sya... nung last update eh masaya ako at nagluto ang mom ko ng sopas, ngayon, inis ako dahil ayaw ko sa-- bakit ko ba sasabihin sa inyo? Joke. Wala lang.
Para 'to sa readers kong nagmahal... minahal... nagsakripisyo... naghintay at iniwan.
Trip ko lang kayong...
Pahirapan sa Chapter na 'to. Weh? Hindi. Joke lang. Pakikiligin kayo nito!
Ahh basta! Magbasa na lang! Maganda 'to. Pramis!
~Authorrr.
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Afraid To Lose You
Elai's POV
Today is another day... and today is another day being Von Ian Mendoza's girl. Or... this maybe the last?
Remember the last time na nagkasama kami... He says weird things. A lot. He told me he wanted me to be his girl... but it's like, after that... he'll break up with me.
Tapos... yung necklace na sinabi nyang kanya, di ba nakasulat dun, "You made me believe in forever." Tapos bigla nyang sinabi na Forever is just a Word. Parang... ang sakit ee.
Hindi naman sa hindi ako naniniwalang mahal nya ako... pero nandun yung thought na sooner or later, he'll leave me. Baka bukas, makalawa, o baka nga mamaya iwan nya ako... leave me just like what he did. Ayokong maramdaman sa kanya yung anger na naramdaman ko kay Gelo the day he left me.
Masama bang maging possessive? For me... it's normal. If you love the person... it's normal to grip on them even if we really don't own them. It's normal for us to ask for them to stay 'cause it hurts to see them going. It's normal to wait even if we don't know if the person we are waiting for will ever come back. Cause you know what? That's love. It isn't how long you are waiting... it is how far you understand the reason why you're doing that.
Crazy huh? Pero... alam nyo yun? Di man nya deretsahang sabihin na aalis sya, the way he acts. The way he talk at... the way his eyes speak. Hindi nga sya makatingin directly into my eyes.
Kung di man sya aalis... I know that deep inside him, there is a problem.
And if he ever goes away... there is one thing that I can assure him and myself...
