Sex Lessons ♡lawley fanfic

Chapter 19

1 year later-

I lost my virginity to Cameron.
After three months we were together. The sad thing is that: in that moment, I wanted it to be with Kian. He was the love of my life.
I regretted being with Cameron every day we were together.

Eventually Cameron and I just grew apart and he transferred to NYU. By then, it was already pretty much over, so we said goodbye. I never loved him the way I loved Kian.

My sister moved to Jacksonville in the house I used to live in. She even told me that it was much to big for just her. She wanted me to come live with her so I transferred to TJC, which is a medical school only about 45 minutes away from the house.

It was scary coming back, and I was sure that Kian had already moved on. I didn't want to bother him. Last time, I saw him with Jenn and it broke my heart. Maybe not seeing him will do us both a favor.

"Jessica! Oh darling I cannot believe you are actually here! It's been much too long!" She pulled me into a tight embrace.

"Your room will be whichever one you want on the second floor. The third floor is strictly for guests! But I think you will find the third room on the right in the second floor most appealing to you." She was so proper. I guess that's what Harvard and millions do to you.

"Thanks, Analise." That was her middle name, but she didn't think Corie "suited her".

"Darling, I was just heading to SAMs to get groceries. A couple of friends will be coming over for our weekly dinner. You can unpack. And if you'd like to come to dinner, that would be lovely. Although, I don't think you'll like it."

"That's alright, I was just gonna hang with Andrea later. Maybe catch a movie."

"And sweetie, we'll have to work on your vocabulary!" She said with a wink, heading out the door. Her husband died in service last year, and she was lonely all the time. So now she suffocates herself with people. I guess that's what grieving, Harvard, and millions do to you.

After unpacking my last box, I grabbed a glass of wine and went to check out what she's changed since I lived there. When it was just me.

I didn't hesitate to look at every detail.
My bedroom was beautiful. Every room was beautiful. I'm surprised this house is not on MTV cribs. It's fucking awesome. I just left a bunch of empty rooms, but once Analise got a hold of it, she got an indoor pool, theatre, game room, 14 extra bedrooms, 8 bathrooms.
Mine had a bathroom IN IT! AND a perfect view of the lake behind our house. She built a small little lake house by our dock. I felt so spoiled and I hadn't earned not one bit of it.

I was looking at all the pictures she had I the wall by my dresser, and there many from my childhood, and they were adorable. But one caught my eye. There was a picture of Kian and I kissing at the beach. Here in Jacksonville there is a beach about ten minutes away, and Kian and I went to a party at JC's beach house. That was when we were happy. Before the whole thing with Sam. Before Jenn. Seeing that picture made me miss him even more.

I heard a knock at the door. Ugh. We had a fucking elevator because this house was so big, but stairs were faster and closer.

"Coming!" I yelled.

I opened the door to see Kian, but he was not looking at me, he was pointing to a bush over by the edge of the house.

"Hi, Analise, I noticed that my dog kinda destroyed one-" His eyes wandered over to me and he froze. "Holy shit. J-" I leaned in, letting my heart cloud my judgement and kissed him.
That kiss was better than any kiss I've ever had. It was a kiss I had longed for for two years. Oh, God I missed him.

"Jessica" He whispered, pulling me in for more. His tongue worked magic against mine and we eventually pulled apart.

"I love you!" I blurted out.
I was an idiot.

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