Carolyn (A Black Veil Brides Fanfic)

Chapter 16

*Carolyn's POV*

I watched Andy storm off. It was then that I realised Ashley was missing as well. I snuck a look at the bathroom door-closed. Goddamn it Ash why now. I figured that I had to talk to Andy but I wanted to talk to Ash. I came to the decision of giving Andy his space so I made my way to the bathroom. I rapped on the door lightly.

'Ash?' I asked softly, 'c-can I come in?'

'Uh, y-yeah,' he unlocked the door and I slid in to see his eyes puffy.

'Ashley, what's wrong?' I was concerned about him. He was a great friend and I wanted to know what was bothering him. He shook his head signalling that he didn't want to talk about it.

'Don't worry about me. Go help Andy, I'm pretty sure he needs you more than me,' I was taken aback a little by his comments.

'Ash, tell me please? You know you can tell me anything. Andy needs his space anyway,' he sighed giving in.

'It's just that...after you and Andy got together I began to question my love life. I mean, I don't keep relationships too well so I sleep with different women regularly. What kind of life is that? I'll admit I'm jealous but not because he has you. I'm jealous that he always has such amazing relationships with girls...,' I understood everything now.

'So you're starting to wonder why you don't have that. Why you can't keep a relationship and you're trying to figure out what it is that keeps you from doing this. You lose some of self-confidence piece by piece until you start to change yourself to make yourself better...' I finished, summing things up. He nodded sadly. I pulled him into an embrace and comforted him as best I could.

'Thanks Carolyn, it's nice to know someone understands,' he gave me a half-hearted smile.

'Well, I was in a similar position. I won't get into that though. Now go put a smile on your face and be the Pervy Purdy you were meant to be. It's nothing to be ashamed of. You'll meet the girl of your dreams one day Ash. And if that means sleeping with a hundred other to get there, then so be it,' I smiled at him before leaving the bathroom. Hopefully Andy has had enough time to cool off.

I opened the door of the bus and peeked out-no Andy. Sighing, I grabbed my phone and dialled his number. I asked him where he was but he was still worked up about the situation. At that moment Jinxx walked out with his phone pressed to his ear.

'I am so sorry baby. So so sorry...' I assumed he was talking to Sammi. I can only imagine how upset she would be. His eyes flicked to me before returning to the ground. He was ashamed, I could tell. Honestly, I was as well. I can't believe I did that to Andy. I mean, yeah we aren't dating but we were going to go on a date. I felt so guilty.

I needed to get out of here. I needed to get away from the bus. I ran off and Jinxx must have noticed since he called out my name. I kept running for a couple minutes before I got into the crowded areas. I wanted Andy and I wanted to know where he was. I wasn't paying attention to where I was walking and I found myself in the crowd of a DJ. My anxiety started kicking in. I felt as if everyone was judging me. They didn't what happened-they couldn't-yet I still like they were. I don't belong in this crowd. I backed away trying not to get noticed and began looking for an empty field.

After about 7 minutes of searching I found one...but it wasn't quite empty. Someone was sitting in the middle and I knew exactly who it was. I guess Andy and I have the same method at times like these. We both need to be alone but I needed to talk to him. This was ridiculous. I sat down next to him as he took another drag of his cigarette.

'Hey,' we said quietly, almost in sync. We sat in silence but instead of the usual comforting one, the tension was thick between us.

'I'm sorry...' I was the first to speak.

'No, I'm sorry I overreacted. We're not officially dating and I shouldn't have acted like it. I am still mad at Jinxx because he cheated on Sammi but that's his business and I should've kept it like that. Besides, you were both drunk,'

'That's no excuse though. I shouldn't have slept with him when we have a date Friday. Granted, he's married and it's unacceptable but I started it. I flirted with him under the alcohol's influence. I started it,' he nodded in understanding.

'Speaking of Friday...you still up for the date?' he asked with a slight smirk.

'Of course,' I smiled and kissed his cheek, 'I'm looking forward to it. I hope you have something planned now,' he blushed making me smirk.

'I do, trust me. But for now we have a show to play so let's go,'

~Sorry for not updating in so long :/ I feel bad. I've had a lot of shit going on and schools not helping. Anyway, let me know what you think in the comments please? I love you all for reading!~