tumblr girls // lrh [completed]

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7:48 a.m.
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i'd like to think that I knew who he really was, not just that he could tolerate the things that I liked but that I knew of the things he actually enjoyed and the things that made him smile.

he loved music. he used to play me songs all the time and he even had bigger dreams like starting a band. i don't think that worked out but if it did I haven't heard of the yet.

he used to kick my ass in fifa and when we didn't get Chinese food he insisted we order pizza.

his friends were his life. calum came over almost everyday, him and I even became somewhat friends because of the amount of times Luke would be gone late at night and Calum would come over to keep me entertained. he used to try and teach me guitar but we always got frustrated because I sucked. we ate all the food in the fridge and sometimes we baked cookies if Luke was gone for that long.

he never gave me a straight answer as to what he did when he was gone but Calum assured me he wasn't cheating. apparently he talked about me all the time to the boys.

ashton and I had our moments but I wouldn't consider him my friend. sometimes he would tickle me until I couldn't breath when I made a joke about his ever changing love life. he couldn't find a good girl for the life of him. but most of the time, we made polite conversation or plain ignored each other. most of the tickling came when we all got high because for whatever reason, that was Luke's favourite things to do with all of us.

calum liked to joke that they were more of a boyfriend to me then Luke was, which pissed him off quite a bit. i know he tried but he was never one for the cutesy shit. the boys didn't see our nights sitting on the kitchen counter talking until 3 a.m. and they didn't see how Luke made me feel about myself 24/7. he made me feel beautiful.

michael and I kissed once. Luke had been gone for a whole day and I was waiting for a phone call telling me he had either left me or was dead. i was depressed and Michael was there. i got high off the stash Luke held in his closet and shit happened. that's why I never talked to him after that day.

i wonder if he still talks to them all.