For Her

Chapter Eighteen: *Flashback Chapter*

There's Arabic in here. I'll put in English translations at the bottom:)

"He's a despicable liar and a sorry excuse for a father." -Amir Abdullahi, FH.

CHAPTER EIGHTEEN: You Again [Flashback Chapter 2]

2 years ago

Amir Abdullahi

"What do you want? WHAT THE HELL DO YOU WANT FROM ME!?" I shouted angrily at him. 

He's a despicable liar and a sorry excuse for a father. He doesn't deserve to be a father, hell he doesn't deserve any good thing that he has. "Just listen to me." He tried to take a step closer to me but I stepped away from him. "Why should I? Huh? Give me one good reason. You left me. After mom died you were the only person I had left and you disappeared from my life! Do you even  You married another women and had kids with her and suddenly they're all you cared about. Do you know how much I cried for you? Did you know how much I needed my father then? I thought you cared about me but you didn't. So sorry if I don't want to stay here another second and look at you," I couldn't stop myself. It was like all the stuff I've been holding back for the past couple of years is now coming out. I wanted him to hate himself for what he did to me and to those other kids. Look at me, 'Those other kids?' I can't even bring myself to accept the reality that they are my half siblings.

He looked at me with watery eyes as if pleading for me to take pity on him. "I never meant to hurt you Amir. I'm really sorry for everything, I know I'm a bad person and I'm trying to fix that. I want to be a good person again, I've asked Allah for forgiveness and now I'm asking you. Let me right my wrongs. Please," He begged. Part of me just wanted to forgive him already but the other part wanted to see him in pain. Sadly that second half was stronger.

"I'm sorry but I can't, I can't just forgive you like that. Please leave before I call the cops on you," I said in a deadly calm voice."Okay but I'm not giving up on you Amir. I'm not giving up on any of my children ever again. I will win you back and them soon In Shaa Allah أنا أحبك ابنه" He said as he left my apartment.

I love you son kept on repeating in my head over and over again. I haven't heard anyone say that to me in a really long time. But then again it did come from him.

I walked inside my house where mom was sitting with dad in the living room. "I'm home," I yelled happily and ran to the both of them.

I was so happy and care free back then, oh god I miss those times. But they never last long because surely everything good can never last. I remember the next day mom got into a car crash and died instantly on the scene. You know what's worse? It was all my fault. If I wasn't playing in the back seat she wouldn't have turned around and she would've seen the car coming our way. Some times I wish I would've died with her, then I wouldn't feel like this. I wouldn't feel so empty and helpless.

"Where's my son?" I heard my dad ask one of the doctors standing near my door. Mom..she can't be gone. "Mom!" I cried out loud as tears started running down my cheeks. I had to get out of this room and see her, I just have to. "Amir!" Dad shouted as he ran up to me and hugged me.

"Where's mom?" I asked in a small voice. He looked at me with teary eyes and that's all I needed to know. "She's with Allah," He said and held me tighter.

By the next day dad was gone, all he left for me was a letter telling me that while he was married to mom he was also married to another lady. He also told me he had three other kids. Just like that he was out of my life and I had to be put into the system. How could I ever forgive a man like that? He abandoned four of his children after the first signs of struggle. When my mom died he left, when their mom got diagnosed with cancer he started drinking and then he left.

I'll never forgive him, or so I thought.

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