Friends are the best presents

NO PARTY PLEASE. I WILL STAY HOME

"Say you're sorry
That face of an angel
Comes out just when you need it to
As I paced back and forth all this time
Cause I honestly believed in you"

- Is everything okay, Mia? -Ashley asked after hearing me cried all the 25 seconds- phone call
- I'm okay- I replied
- So about the party.... Are you supposed to go? -Ashley slowly asked. I can totally feel her voice whispering to me....
- I don't know... I don't know, I know nothing... -I screamed in depression- I shouldn't go, I shouldn't
- You should take a rest if you feel like you need to- Ashley adviced me with her warm voice as usual. We are talking to each other on two different sides of the earth connected by talking through Direct Message on Twitter but I feel like she is right here, right now, talking directly to me and advices me with her warm voice that can warm up this humid weather...
- No I think I'm okay, just keep on talking to me, I love you so much for asking... You don't know, you cheer me up everyday.... The party, that is not my thing, as usual I would hide in my bed and writing, write whatever I want to write about everything what I see, how I feel.... -I said
- You can also read books! And talk to me if I'm awake I will be here for you- Ashley suggested
Basically we don't live in the same country. So there must be some exact changes in timezone and stuffs, that's why we can't talk for too long. It would be either one of us got to leave or sleep or anything nerdy that interrupted the conversation. We both hate it.
- Yes so now, what do I do? Call back to James? Or just keep silence and said I forget about the party when I face him? -I asked
- Uhm, I think you can directly call him, talk to his face that you end here. And let's see what would his reaction be, he deserves that pain- Ashley said sarcastically
- Oh gosh- I laughed hard- yes I will haha I will
I search in contact list, can't even remember his phone number which is weird bc we have been getting on well for 6 months and yes ended by the conversation after school time which lasted for 6 minutes... Oh yes there he is, contact named: James with the blue heart emoji beside and the picture of him and me standing at the studio holding cameras, that's when we took photos for a family and while waiting for them to get dressed we were talking for a while and yes that photo was taken when we were talking about the background and the light and ISO and everything else, he just stood there looked at me while I was giving speech about all the above things, I was so happy that I couldn't stop saying and he just kept on looking at me and smiling all the time. It has been an awkward moment when I just spoke but he said mostly nothing during that time. Weirdo... I just couldn't help laughing whenever I see any photos of us taken on that day...
Not this time, Pie- my dog's bark kept me back to the reality. Naughty dog, nobody else outside of my house, maybe bc of the branch tree just crashed on its kennel. I throw myself against the my bed, it's nearly 6 pm grab my phone and oh forgot to call James. Ashley's dm appears on my screen:" How was the call" I quickly switch to Twitter to answer this cutie, sometimes I really need to question am I truly a girl or not, bc I feel like I actually turned lesbian for Ashley. But then Ashley calms me down, as usual...
- No, I didn't call him- I replied
- What? -Ashley said, I can totally see how depress she is. I get her
- Yes, I didn't- I said- you know, once when he truly wants to get back with his girlfriend, he will never change his mind so it will be poitnless for me to persuading him or begging him to come back with me. Jana is beautiful, you don't know, everybody in my school knows that and me? I'm just a crazy girl who has weird hobbies like writing and reading books and once when hr decided to go with her, it means he wants to break up with me and he doesn't want to talk to my face.
- Yes, you are right, and probably the phone call he called you half an hour ago maybe was planned by his ex- girlfriend instead. Perhaps she wants to claim that he is hers now not yours anymore. Such a weirdo. I do hate Jana eventhough I have never met her but I swear she is the craziest girl in this galaxy- Ashley said
- Haha you are right. You actually know how to cheer me up even if I am about to cry. See, my friend knows how to cheer me up....

I stopped for a while. Surfing through my Camera roll for a little while, but still make sure that, if Ashley replied, I will still answer no matter what. And what I say surf through the camera roll, it means, re- view all the old photos and see anything necessary to delete.... I started from the very first photo, it was when I first got this phone and I tried the camera and see how does it work by taking a picture of the view out of my window, with the tree house, the flowers, and the pink house a little far away from here... I can totally feel my feelings when I took those photos, I took like a thousand ones and now I regret it and deleting them... That's why my phone storage is low sometimes..... Scroll down for a little bit, there has been some photos of my books: The book thief, that book is good, The fault in our stars: still haven't read, The graveyard story: seems creepy but totally makes me cry, Three musketeers: developed my childhood, and a bunch of stories more. Now I don't even have time to care about how to take care of myself lack of time to read books, ugh, homework, writing daily news for class and sometimes I do have to check the photos I took for my class not so stunning but I think it's okay for class photos... Some of them were taken with my phone but some were copied from SD card from my camera... Surfing for a little while then I see the photo might be taken by James so the colors look much different from mine... That is pretty ugly... Got to delete this. But wait.... I don't only have one photos, I have a bunch of photos were taken by James. Those once have been my goals I used to treasure them like diamonds, I should've known those look ugly now, I hate them, I hate all of them, even now if James's photography skills have improved, those photos he took now still ugly, he is also ugly now inside and out...
*Ashley just sent me a photo of Shawn*
Ughh, why would she do that? She knows Shawn is my celebrity crush why would she still send? Oh gosh, look at his smile, look at his face and his outfit not so special but really out-standing. Oh gosh, I'm dead....
- ASHLEY WHAT ARE YOU DOING? Why do you do this stuffs like this all the time? - I screamed at Ashley after gone crazy for a little while
- Bc I love you so much- she answered
See? How cute she is. Even knows how to joke at the time you have gone crazy and having that kind of friend is really cool and when you have to fangirl she is just there and fangirls together with you, screams together and gone insane together which to me I think is good... That's the meaning of soulmate.
Forgot for a while, still haven't answered Ashley
- Hey derrling- I sent a photo of Dylan
Ashley randomly squeezes the keyboard
Kind of insane to everybody else. But nah, that's what I like at her, express feelings with exactly actions which is cool...
I spend the rest of my week talking to Ashley whenever we are both active, can say that we totally can't live without a day talking to each other. No like serious, everything needs to be shared need somebody to talk to, even if they don't give out advices, you are still okay because what they did was everything: listen in silence....
It's Saturday and everybody is talking about the party tomorrow. Well yes, I don't care... But still want to know even a little. The 'J and J couple' will probably be the hottest in the party, I mean James and Jana couple. Everybody knows that and so do I. Talking of James, he is trying to avoid meeting me like everyday, sometimes I even see James kissing Jana after school on the roof top of the school, I used to go there with James everyday to take photos. But we haven't ever kissed before, ever, ever and now is never. Of course I don't interested in that, I was all like: ew ew ew when I saw them kissing and then probably walked away in disappointment. That's not my boyfriend, never ever...
Back to the party, everybody is excited for it, they buy new outfits, new shoes, they all like well prepared but yeah, that's none of my business. And I'm happy to see any of them argue about what should they wear on Sunday. I think if my answer if I will be asked: Me? I will wear my banana pj! Really interesting bc simply I will absolutely!
I went home in a good mood, good mood really good!! Danced to my room, I opened my room in happiness, I haven't been that happy for a long time. Grabbed my phone, supposed to talk to Ashley then I see Anton is calling me. He is my friend like best friend, he is really cool, really careful and his girlfriend is really awesome too, we have been friends for 4 years till now. I answered the call:
- Hi buddy! -I said
- Hi cutie! -Anton answered
- What's wrong buddy?- I asked
- Nothing special just about the party- he stopped for a while- James will go with Jana so who do you suppose to go with?
- Oh well, you know I'm over it. I'm so okay, you don't know how happy am I right now, Anton! -I laughed through the phone
- Are you okay? What about the party? You seem to be unconcerned? -Anton asked
- C'mon no worries bud, I won't go anyway- I said
- You won't?- he seems amazed- okay, Marie (his amazing girlfriend) and I will miss you alot- Anton said
- Call me if anybody bully you- I said sarcastically- kidding only! Have fun then. Also send Marie my love
- Sure, have fun staying at home Miss Johnson- Anton said
- Bye, see you on Monday!- I said right before Anton stopped the call

I'm so happy right now. For no reason. Just happy