× chapter one ×
× about one year later ×
Harry leaned his head on the window of his hotel.
The lads and him were in their hotel and while they were chattering away he had his ear phones on, subconsciously nodding his head to the beat with his eyes closed wanting to block the rest of the world out.
One would think that being with your four best mates would lighten your mood. Make you happy for at least a moment.
But even in a room full of smiles and friends, he couldn't feel anymore alone then he was now.
He kept his eyes closed pretending to be asleep on the sofa, the music he was hearing not allowing him to listen to what the other lads were talking about.
He was unaware of a pair of blue eyes staring at him intently. Eyes which were once so full of light and joy have dimmed down to a cold crystal. The pair of eyes wandered and watched him closely. He noticed how Harry's hands were clenched tight and his plump lips were slightly parted. His chest rose up and then back down again in sync with his breathing and the blanket he was wrapped in kept sliding down but the curly boy did nothing about it.
Louis could hear the rest of boy's banter from across the room. He bit his lip and hesitantly got up from his place on his seat and tip toed over to Harry. He sat by him and out of instinct he reached over and moved a curl out of his face.
Harry's breathing hitched at the old, familiar touch. He didn't dare open his eyes so he just sat there and kept pretending he was still asleep.
Louis smiled sadly. "Look at you," He whispered. He stroked his cheek softly. "You're so beautiful." He stared at his features with a broken smile "I'm so sorry.." He whispered, a tear rolling down his face as he kissed the younger boy's forehead.
The older boy got up and picked him up carefully and carried him to his bed in the next room. He placed him down softly and put the blanket over him again. He sighed and shook his head.
He didn't dare go back to where the boy's were they would probably question him. So he just quietly slipped into his room and planned on not coming out till morning.
Harry had his eyes wide open as he stared off into space. He couldn't comprehend what had just happened. It had been a long time since him and Louis had interacted that way. He had lost all hope completely. Which is why he had turned so distant recently. He was never in the mood to do anything anymore and the boy's were noticing his change of mood. He didn't expect Louis to care.
It seemed to Harry as if with each passing day Louis forgot more about him. It was frustrating and it's gotten to him in a way he wouldn't want to admit.
knock. knock.
Harry pulled out his ear phones and sat up at the sound.
"Come in?" It came out in more of a question.
The door opened and Liam popped his head in. "Hey H, did I wake you?" He asked.
Harry smiled. "No, don't worry. Come in."
Liam walked in, closing the door behind him. He sat on the edge of Harry's bed and bit his lip wondering how he should question Harry.
"Soo, what's up Li?" Harry wondered out loud.
Liam sighed. "What happened back there?"
Harry cocked his head to the side. "What do you mean?"
"Harry, you know exactly what I'm talking about."
Harry bit his lip and hugged his knees to his chest.
"I don't know what happened, Li. He hardly acknowledges my existence now all of a sudden he calls me beautiful, tells me he's sorry, and kisses my forehead? And only does all this because he thought I was asleep?"
At this point Harry was shaking. His voice was breaking just as he was inside.
Liam looked at his friend with sadness. Ever since what happened between Harry and Louis he had looked out for Harry even more than before. He sure didn't look like it, but Harry was still the baby of the band and not only him but everyone felt a certain need to take care of him.
He scooted closer to his broken friend and wrapped him in his arms. That's when Harry lost it. He broke down crying right there in his friend's arms.
"I miss him, Li." He cried.
"I know you do, H. It isn't fair but you could see it in his eyes, he's hurting too."
"He's doing just fine he has Eleanor. He's happy. And I have to accept that."
"You know he didn't mean anything he said to you that day. He just doesn't know how to fix it."
"It's been almost a year. He doesn't want to fix it."
Liam sighed but knew it was best not to argue with him about the subject.
Anyways, Louis had brought it onto himself. And he was also the one that hasn't even acknowledged the yougest lad.
Harry soon fell asleep in Liam's arms. Liam sighed and looked at him with such sadness. He shook his head and tucked him in once again and went to his room for the night.
× a/n ×
soooo that's chapter one.
kind of confusing as well but that's sort of the point haha.
all the blanks will be filled in as we continue the story.
but my poor hazza i hate seeing him sad i hate myself for making him so sad ;-;
anyways please remember to vote and comment people ! ((:
love you all x
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