Its Always Been You *A Carlos Pena Story*

Chapter 4

CARLOS POV

I watched as Char walked away. As I tried to get up Alexa was holding on to me. I looked down at her.

"Let go", I said.

She looked up at me confused.

"Why would I do that?", she said almost shocked.

"Let. Me. Go.", I said enunciating every word damn near pushing her off of me. I ran after Charlotte calling her name but I was too late. As I got to the spot where all her things were, I saw her call pull out and speed off. 'Why did she leave like that?' I thought as I walked back to where Alexa was sitting. I looked down at Alexa.

"I'm just gonna head home."

"Whats wrong Los?"

"Nothing. I'm just gonna go home".

Alexa tried to give me a kiss but I turned my head and her lips meet my cheek. I turned and headed towards my car. I drove off, I scanned through the radio stations but there was nothing I wanted to listen too so I cut off the radio. Fifteen minutes later I pull up to my house. As soon as I walked into the house I was met with Sydney Rae and Kiki. I petted both of them and slowly made my way up the stairs. 

Sitting on the bed I thought about today's events and even though I spent my days with the boys and Char, she was the only one I could think about. From her beautiful mocha skin, too those beautiful orbs, plump lips and that smile that could rival an angels. I heard my phone ring and I looked over hoping it was Charlotte but I was disappointed when I looked to see it was Alexa. Rolling my eyes I answered my phone.

"Hello", I said with agitation.

"Can I come over?' 

"No. I just want to be alone."

"Los are you okay?"

"Alexa I'm fine. I just want to be alone".

After that quick conversation I hung up the phone. I rubbed my face in irritation. I looked at the clock, it read 9:30pm. I felt icky from the beach and saw I was still a little sandy so I decided to take a shower. Walking  into the bathroom I looked at the off white walls and sighed. No matter how hard I tried my mind kept floating back to thoughts of Char even though I was with Alexa.

Stripping of my swim trunks I stepped into the shower and sat down on the bench and let the water spray over my body. I started to think about Alexa and her smooth milky skin down  and her warm smile but that face morphed into Char's and I realized that even though I looked Alexa I felt emotions towards Char...or I thought I did. Shaking my head I stepped out the shower wrapped a towel around my waist and sat on the small couch in my room.

I grabbed my phone and looked at the time 12. I was in the shower for almost three hours, I though astonished. I saw Char had not text me so I needed to text her.

Why did you leave like that last night? xoxo Los

Was it something I did? xoxo Los

Please talk to me? xoxo Los

Tell me whats wrong. xoxo Los

Char. Please. Talk to me. xoxo Los

Atleast send me a text to let me know tou made it home safe. xoxo Los.

I didn't send all the text back to back but I was hoping for an answer. I waited for at least another hour. At one o clock I decided to call it a night and went to sleep. I woke up to a vibration on my chest. Staring down at my phone through half asleep eyes I read the text Char sent me.

I made it home. Don't want to talk. Please leave me alone for the moment.

It made my heart hurt. I kept reading the text over and over again and the feeling of pain never left. She didn't even put 'xoxo Char' she always put  'xoxo Char' when we text and for her to not put it I knew she was pissed at me. Not wanting to wallow in my pity I got out of bed and walked down stairs.

Immediately I was greeted my Syndey and KiKi. "Hello my beautiful ladies", I said petting both of them, as I walked into the kitchen they followed me. I poured food into Sydney's bowl and then KiKi. Sitting on the island in my kitchen I looked out the window but all I could think about was Char. I pulled out my phone and re-read the text she sent me.

I wish I knew what I did to make her upset. I wish I knew. I wish she'd talk to me. I tweeted. 

I stayed on twitter long enough to see that all of my Rushers were asking me what's wrong, am I okay or was there something going on with Alexa. I knew if Charlotte was to see the tweet she knew it was going to be about her. I walked into the living room with a bowl of popcorn and tried to watch TV.  I just needed to keep my mind off both Alexa and Char but I wasn't helping and in the end I groaned through my hands in my face.

Sydney came over to me and kicked my hands. "I'm okay girl", I said petting her head. I just needed to know that Char was okay. I walked over to my phone and dialed Kendall's number.

"Wassup Los."

"Can you, Logan and James go check up on Char for me?", I asked kind of shaky.

"Why", he asked with confusion laced in his voice.

"She's mad at me right now and I just need for you guys to go talk to her. Please. For me?" I asked in a pleading tone.

"Fine", Kendall said and I could damn near see his eyes roll as he respond.

"Bye", we both said.

I sat on my couch thinking about Char and our friendship and her smile and just everything I loved about her. Like her smile, her personality, her cute little sneeze, the way sun reflects on her skin and more I think about it the more I realized I was in love with Char. "Damn', I said to myself. I was in a predicament. I loved both Char and Alexa. What did I get myself into.

Determined to keep my mind off of them I started to clean, and by clean I cleaned everything. It took two hours. I sat down on my bed and relaxed. The phone rang. It was Kendall. 

"Hello", I asked groggily.

"We got an answer from Char but she needs to tell you herself. That's all I have to say. Bye."

"Bye", I said back a little more awake then I was before.

I kept thinking about what Kendall meant until I dozed off into sleep.