Its Always Been You *A Carlos Pena Story*

Chapter 6

A/N: To all those who are reading my story thanks(:

I don't know how long I've been sitting in the chair waiting to see Carlos but it feels as if I've been here for an eternity. I keep shaking my knee, bouncing it up and down trying to calm my nerves but it isn't working. My gaze was fixed on my hands which were placed gently on my lap when I saw too feet in front of me. I look up and saw it was Logan. He was holding a burger and some fries.

"You hungry", he asked as my stomach growled, "I take that as a yes", he said laughing. I snatch the food from his hands. "I didn't get a chance to eat breakfast this morning", I said with a mouthful of french fries, "and I didn't notice how hungry I was until you put food in front of my face". Swallowing my fries and taking a bite of my burger Logan only laughs at me. Wondering where Kendall and James were I look around to see them comforting Alexa.

I opened my mouth to say something but Logan cut me off. "You know I wasn't exactly sleep when you and Mama Pena were talking", he stopped to gauge my face. I kept staring at the wall while I ate my food with a blank face so he continued, "and I completely agree". I looked up at Logan while my eyes started to tear again, swallowed my food and said 'thank you'. He just gave me a small hug and said "No problem Char".

As I was finishing my food the Pena family walked out. I glanced at the clock and and it was 6:30pm. 'Wow', I thought, 'I got here at 8am...we've been here all day.' We stood up to meet them halfway and Javi started to speak.

"The doctor told us that we can go over to the visiting hours since they want at least one of us to be with Carlos when he wakes up".

We all looked around at each other. Until Kendall spoke up. "We'll just take hour shifts. Me and the boys will go first, then Alexa and finally you Char," I looked over at Alexa's face and she looked completely pissed but hey, Kendall made the list, not me. The Pena family all said bye because they needed to leave, and as Mama Pena was giving me a hug she whispered in my ear, "Good look." and I whispered back "Thanks."

I went back over to sit in the same seat while the boys walked though the doors to go and visit Carlos. Yet again I saw staring at my hands when I saw two feet in front of me but this time I know it wasn't Logan. I looked up to see Alexa.

"I know you love Carlos. It obvious. I just don't understand how Carlos doesn't understand it but what you need to realize is that Carlos is my man. MY MAN. Not yours or anyone else's and if you think that I am going to let someone like you come and break us up then you have another thing coming. So you need to get  over this little crush thing you have with Carlos or be prepared for heartbreak because Carlos will NEVER love you. He will always and forever be mine." And with that she walked away with a smirk on her face.

I just stared at the ground trying my best to hold back tears. I didn't want her to see me cry, to see all the pain she just caused me but I couldn't help thinking what if she was right. What if Carlos didn't love me. With my head still hung down I briskly walked to the bathroom. Once in there I looked up and stared at the mirror. I look tired. Wiping my face and making sure no tears were going to come out and went back to the waiting area. By now the boys' hour was up and Alexa was in the room with Carlos.

"Is he awake yet?", I asked in a small voice, which cracked.

"What's wrong?", James asked as the boys crowded around me.

"Nothing I said. I'm fine."

They just stared at me with the 'I know you are lying look' and I cracked.

"Alexa just said some mean things to me. That's all. I'm fine. I just wasn't expecting it. Ya know?", I said chewing on my lip, "I mean what she says means nothing to me. I just didn't expect it.". I finished rambling as I looked off into the distance.

"Char", James sighed out my name and they gave me a group hug. We all sat in the waiting room, the boys kept cracking jokes to keep out mind off of it.

"Ya know", I said, "I'm surprised the paparazzi hasn't showed up yet."

"Oh. Management payed the hospital for extra security to even if the paparazzi knew that Carlos was here no one would show up".

I just nodded my head at the answer. I kept wondering if Carlos was awake and if he was talking to Alexa telling her how much he loved her and how much he meant to her, but I was elated when Alexa walked out with a gloomy face. She told me it was my turn and that Carlos was still sleeping.

I walked past her and she bumped my shoulder. I looked back at her as she shot me a glare. I walked through the double doors down the hall and stopped at Carlos's room. I took a deep breathe and walked in.

I looked around the room and the walls were pristine and white, the TV was off , the curtains were closed and the only sound in the room was the heart monitor that Carlos was attached to. I walked over to his side. I was happy to see that his smooth caramel skin didn't even look pale, he still looked beautiful. I held his hand.

"Carlos", I started talking, "you mean so much too me and I don't even think you understand it. Even when we were kids you were always there for me. When I was able to move out to LA and be with you it was the best thing ever. I'm so lucky to have you as my best friend. Plus you're in Big Time Rush so that has some cool perks I guess.  Carlos I just love you so much and I hope one day I'll able to tell you." I kept eyes closed.

"What if you already told me that you loved me....and what if I told you I loved you too."

Slowly I opened my eyes to see Carlos staring right back at me. "Please don't lying to me. Don't play with my emotions."

"I'm not", Carlos said as he squeezed me hand, "I love you so much, but I've never been able to say it and now I finally just realized it....Kiss me?"

I just stared at him shocked..."Are you serious?"

"Kiss me", he said.

I took a deep breath as I leaned down. I felt his warm breathe on my face and our lips connected. It was better than I imagined. His lips with soft and smooth. All I felt was passion, and sparks. From a simple peck it turned into a deeper kiss and I let out a small moan in his mouth. All I could think it he's an AMAZING kisser.

"Carlos", we heard as the door opened, "Are you awake it?"

We break apart rapidly as Alexa walks into the room.

CLIFFHANGER YO' (: