Drarry Oneshots

Just Can't Say Goodbye

I have a bunch of oneshots I wrote in like 2023 that I just have on drafts, so I decided to publish them just because. I'm super sorry if they're bad, I didn't edit them.

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I have furthermore decided that I'm basing these oneshots after songs. Please listen to Apocalypse by Cigarettes After Sex for the best reading experience.

This is set after the war, about 7 years. Self harm is slightly mentioned.

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Words cannot comprehend anything of which I was feeling. Betrayed? Ashamed? Sad? Disappointed? Angry?

You're a death eater. The people I am going against. You were leaning against a sink in the washroom, sobbing all the tears you could possibly muster out of your wretched heart. Your sleeve was rolled up, with blood trickling down the dark tattoo. My brain barely had time to comprehend why your arm was bleeding. I didn't realize it until it was much too late, and you had already casted a spell towards me.

My heart felt twisted when I saw you cry. I never would've thought, with all the years you had spent bullying me, I would see you crash. If I had enough time to, maybe I could've helped you. But I didn't. Instead, I ended up almost killing you.

The first time I heard what your experience with death eaters were like, I was crying. It sounded traumatizing and horrifying for someone so young, to go through. Why did we have to end up in war? There was no point to it. You just got so caught up in pleasing your father's selfish wishes you forgot about your own. You forgot about your own dignity, your own beliefs. You just became a mold of him. You harmed innocent and empowered evil just for your father's approval.

You didn't have a choice. Your loved one's safety valued much more than your own. That's why I respect you. You would sacrifice every bone, every limb, every little fragment in your body, no matter how important it is, to save and keep your loved ones safe.

The first time I saw you after the war, you looked lifeless. It was like you were there but weren't at the same exact time. There was no light in your gray eyes, it was just dull. I wanted to help you. I could've freed you from Azkaban. Instead, you were the stubborn Malfoy you were and kept on persisting my pleading. I'm glad you only got house arrest.

Kind of. Because if you weren't on house arrest, maybe I wouldn't have tried to help you. I probably wouldn't have fallen for you, either. When you were in house arrest, you barely had anyone to talk to. Your parents were completely out of the question, your father getting the Dementor's Kiss and your mother being forced into another place for house arrest. So, you started talking to me randomly when I went to check on you. It was awkward at the start, with you always making fun of me when we were younger. But you did apologize, and honestly, that's all I could ever ask for. You were maturing in that day and age.

We started warming up to one another. Cracking jokes, laughing until our stomachs hurt, and just enjoying each other's company while stealing each other's food. It was fun, enjoyable even. But then feelings got in the way. Two people with the same gender are not allowed to be together. That's why it's never mentioned anywhere. It's only straight couples, even if they're toxic as hell, society treats them much better than anything else. We distanced from each other, trying to remove the odd feelings and move on.

That only draws us backwards. The next thing you know, we were basically making out on the floor.

It was a various set of emotions, feelings, touching, anything. My hands kept on pulling and tugging at your hair, and our lips were locked together. No one wanted to pull away, the feeling of craving was only growing stronger as the seconds passed.

But then you panicked. You pushed me to the floor, and I felt so dumbfounded in that moment. You dashed away.

I shrugged it off and I kept on coming back. We started to kind of become more of a regular couple instead of 'friends with benefits', and those were the happiest moment of my life.

Then something happened with you. I don't know what, and I don't know why. I've been staying by your side in case you need someone to hold you. Your eyes have been losing the light in them. You've been distancing from me. But just know something, my love.

When you're all alone, I'll reach for you. When you're feeling low, I'll be there too.