Chapter 16

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Miley's POV:
I stood hands on the sink counter in the bathroom,looking down at the 2 test in the sink...positive...fuck this can't be happening.
"Miley?" Shit.I turned round to Daniel stood in the doorway.
"Yeah sorry um I was washing my hands" I smiled at him.Did that sound believable?
"Then why are you crying?" He asked looking at me,I didn't even realise I was until now.He came over and hugged me,letting go I edged nearer to the sink to cover the view of it with my back so he couldn't see them in the sink.
"What are you doing?" He said raising his eyebrow and moving round to look behind my back, I moved away knowing he had seen them so I don't need to hide it.
"Miley your p-" I cut him off
"Yes I know I fucking no" I said shaking my head letting the tears fall he hugged me closer.
"Daniel I can't,I can't have a baby,I'm not ready after last time I'm not over that,it still plays in my head,that moment I found out.But I blocked it out,I got drunk and then ended up fighting with everyone." I stopped spilling my heart out to him and looked at them again.Its real I took two to prove it was.
"What...what are you gonna do?" He asked scratching the back of his neck looking at me sympathetically.I don't no.
"I don't no" I said crying even more.I was now uncontrollably crying,I'm not ready I can't do this.
"Look how about we go down and get you soon water and air because your gonna have a panic attack in a minute if you keep crying,and we will tell the boys and see if they can help with anything" I nodded and followed him down going outside breathing in and out.A few minutes later Daniel came in and handed me a bottle of water.
"Thanks" I said through my heavy breathing and tearfulled face.He nodded and sat down next to me on the wall.We sat in silence it was a nice silence not an awkward silence,after I calmed down we decided to go in and tell them.What if they kick me out?What if Beau leaves me?Shit Beau.
"Um is everything ok?" James asked looking at me and back to Daniel and then focused on me.He could probably tell I was crying because a tear fell as soon as I sat down.I breathed in unsteadily and opened my mouth to tell them but no words came out.I looked at Daniel and he nodded at me as to say tell them.
"I...I'm..I'm pre-ggnant" I said as I looked down.Great I stuttered,everyone was shocked.They want me to leave don't they I thought to myself.
"When did you find out?" Jai asked
"Well I was sick as in morning sickness,and I wasn't feeling well,and me and Beau recently you no had sex,I just took a test and when I saw it was positive I started crying and that's when Skip walked in" I said looking at Luke who hadn't said anything.I bet he hates me I'm having his brothers baby.
"What are you going to do?" James said I shook my head.
"I honestly don't no,I mean Beau might leave me.Or what if he doesn't want it" I said as to many things went through my head.
"He won't leave you..he grew up without a dad,so he wouldn't let his own child grow up without one" I nodded knowing that's true,maybe he won't agree or want it but he wouldn't let it not have a dad.
"When are you going to tell him Mi?" Luke said,at least he spoke,ok this I going ok at the moment.
"I don't no,not today,not yet I just I don't think I can do this not after my you no my miscarriage" I said sighing.
"Mi I don't want you to worry about this but,is he still hanging round with that group?Because they used to give him drugs?And he can't get addicted,if he is gonna be a dad and all.He doesn't tell us stuff like that anymore." Jai said looking at me,I knew about this from his past and we all knew he met with them sometimes,shit.I stood up
"What if that's where he is today?" I asked panicking.
"I don't no he might be,but since then he has only seen them like three or four times.Sometimes you just have to let him be because,if you tell him any different he doesn't like it and that's when he starts arguments.He has matured since then so he is safe,don't worry about it.Im sure as soon as you tell him about this as well it will make him stop for good" Daniel said rubbing my back,I nodded maybe there right maybe it will be alright.
"But whatever happens we will support and help you and this baby 100%,your family and plus were gonna be....UNCLESSSSS" James said jumping up and down like a little child as the other 3 joined in.
"Yeah,it will all be ok" I said to myself be positive.Whats the worst that could happen?
That night I couldn't sleep the thought of it all was just to much.Beau still wasn't back yet and I'd left him messages,all I could do now is sit and wait.I was currently downstairs sitting on the bar stools with a mug of tea.The scariest part is my thoughts when your sat in a room on your own and your left with just you and your thoughts it's dangerous...what if I loose this baby too?No I need to stop thinking like this,I need to get rid of the silence.I put the tv on and started watching some shitty film that was on.And then I heard the lock turn and Beau walked in...I sat up and looked at him,he was drunk.He stumbled in and sat next to me pulling me near to him.
"What you up?" He slurred he stunk of alcohol.I scrunched my face up and breathed out I was holding in a shaky breath on his mood.Thats the thing with Beau you have to walk on egg shells to see what mood he's in.
"I couldn't sleep" I mumbled as I got out off his tight grip and headed up stairs.I didn't want to be near him when he's like that and especially with the secret I'm keeping in.I went up to our room and got in bed he will probably pass out down there tonight so I just got into bed and drifted to sleep with my thoughts.
"Beau I'm pregnant" I looked him in the eye reading the furious expression on his face.
"That's funny good prank" He laughed and sat down laughing slightly.
"No beau I really am pregnant were having a baby" I smiled,smiled through the pain.
"No were not.Im not ready to be a dad what about the Janoskians it's gonna effect everyhting" He said getting more angry,I sighed looking down at my tummy there really was a baby in there it just needs a loving family.
"Beau I'm having the baby I can't get an abortion,I won't get an abortion" I shouted tears falling down my face.
"How do you no it's even mine?!Its probably some man you've had a one night stand with you..you slut!!"
You slut
You slut.
I sat up quickly in bed sweating,fuck it was only a dream.Thank god!
I swung my legs over the bed and stood up getting my balance,it felt so real,what do he does react like that?Stop it stop thinking negative.I went downstairs to the smell of bacon,the boys are up early?I went in the kitchen and they were all there apart from Beau?
"Morning Mi" James and Jai said then being followed by Luke and Skip.
"Morning,why are you all up early?" I asked sitting next to Luke on the table.
"We've got a interview at 12:30" James said putting the food he cooked on the plates.
"Hmm, where's Beau?" I asked getting a glass of orange juice and handing Skip one to.
"Yeah he went to the gym quick,apparently it helps his hang over" Luke said laughing,I shrugged and sat back down with everyone else.When would be the best time to tell him?
"What about you Mi you coming?" Jai said putting me out my thoughts
"Sorry what I wasn't listening"
"Are you gonna come with us and then come to dinner with us and Ronnie tonight?" Jai said I nodded and smiled at him to reassure him.
"Is everything ok?You seem like something is bothering you?" Luke said nudging my arm next to me.
"Yeah I'm fine...No I'm not actually" I said shaking my head and biting a bit of toast.
"What's the matter?" Skip said looking at me
"I had this dream,where I was telling Beau about the baby and he started shouting at me and then he called me a slut and said it wasn't his baby it was probably a one night stand,and he can't have a baby it will ruin his life"
"I'm sure it didn't mean anything don't worry or over think it to much" I nodded and we all finished off breakfast,getting ready to leave.
Just as I stepped out the shower Beau walked in and smiled at me.
"Morning babe" He said giving me a quick kiss
"Morning handsome" I smiled wrapping a towel round me.
"No I liked it better before,you looked sexy" He said lifting me up onto the side board of the bathroom kissing me roughly.
"Beau stop" I slightly moaned.He stopped and looked at me slightly,kissing down my neck softly,ousting me back against the wall.
"Beau we have to go out" I put my hands against his chest and kissed him one last time before jumping off and walking out to get changed,I heard him moan in frustration,I turned back and smirked at him.
"Someone is a bit Horney" I laughed at him.
"Shut up,I'm not" He argued grabbing me and spinning me round.
"But we will finish this later" He said as I put my top on.
"In your dreams Brooks in the your dreams" I said as I grabbed my wedges and phone and headed downstairs.I had a long black maxi type skirt on and a white plain crop top with cream colour wedges, I got into the car where Luke and Jai were already waiting for everyone and me and Luke took a quick selfie,both putting it on Twitter and instergram.
"We are the selfie king and queen tho" Luke said looking proud,I nodded and laughed.Moments like these I forget about all my problems.After a while of us all piling in the car one by one we got in and headed to the interview.That took about over an hour,I just sat on my phone in another room watching them through a little tv.After it was done we headed to the park as they decided they wanted to film a video.Note the joy in my voice...
"Hey guys were the janoskians" I helped film some off it by then I completely zoned out when I saw a mum and a baby in the playground.She looked young to,that would be me soon,was she a single mum?Bless her if she was,she looked happy though laughing as her little girl fell over in the sand,she seemed to no what she was doing,it comes naturally though to some people at least.I snapped out off my thoughts by the boys waving in my face that they have finished filming.I nodded and got into the car with them leaving thinking all about my baby...We went home for a bit and got ready to go out for dinner with Ronnie and Mariam.I was quite excited to see Mariam as we get on well but we never see each other.
We got there a got a table sitting down and ordering.Me and Mariam were catching up and she seemed good.Of course I wasn't gonna tell her I'm pregnant...after eating we all spoke some more,it was a good night.Eventually we all left going home,when we got home all the boys sat down getting some beers oh god not again.I was gonna do it before they all for drunk.I decided I was going to tell Beau.
"Beau please can I talk to you quickly?" I said shaking,he nodded getting up and going outside,I looked back at all the boys heads turned towards me they nodded meaning do it,it will be ok I nodded back pulling on a smile.I walked out to where Beau was sat on the wall outside our house.I sat next to him looking down.Shit I never knew I could get so nervous.
"Babe what is it?Are you ok?" He asked I nodded and looked at him,his eyes still had that beautiful green sparkle to them,he was just so perfect to me I couldn't bare to loose him again.
"Beau I'm...I'm pregnant and your the father..." I breathed out and let the silence and tension above us fall down...
And let me tell you it hurt like a bitch.

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