Marian

Chapter 1

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Dream ~ Believe    
Motivate ~ Perspirate
Confidence ~ The Key
"Curves Are Beautiful"
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There was a time before during my younger days when I was really skinny, poised and confident, and Oh! Single, with lots of free time.

What I did with lots of free time?

Syempre pa lakwatsa dito, lakwatsa doon. Naaalala ko pa noon, dahil sa init ng panahon, one of our favorite place to hangout was the mall kasi nga airconditioned- malamig. Mag window shopping, tingin- tingin ng kung anong maganda at mas mura sa paningin. Then, visit the food court and lavish our palettes with our choice of dish, pagkatapos, punta nang arcade and try beat each others score in the "Dance Revolution" pad challenge. At night, we would go to the movies or take a visit at the community park where it is really nice at night with all the lights lit up, water fountain running, and street vendors around selling popcorns, kakanin, barbeque at maraming pang iba. Karamihan ng tumatambay sa park is actually mga pamilya with their kids having fun, mga magkakaibigan, at syempre pa tagpuan ng mga magsyota- lovers. Pag minsan, lalo na kapag weekends at walang pasok kinabuksan, we would go to a night club or go to a comedy bar to have some good laugh. A day seems not enough for us to do a lot of things.

Now, on the other hand, those days are part of the past. Sa kasalukuyan,  napakalaking pagkakaiba o pagbabago. Mula sa pisikal kong anyo, prayoridad, kalayaan, status sibil at iba pa. And this is the story I would like to share with you. The new chapter of my bongga and spacious life.

If only a mirror can talk just like what you read and watch in fairy tales and movies, it would have a long time ago. Promise! One of the common questions I keep encountering that made me conscious about my appearance is, "What happened?" Ano nga bang nangyari?

Well, eh ano pa nga ba? It's called "Marriage"chicka! 

Right after high school, I accidentally got pregnant. Maagang kumarengkeng, tapos sabay bukaka then, boom! I got married! I married my long time sweetheart Alfred. Even though we got tied up early, I'm happy I ended up with him. He was my first and hopefully my last. I can see myself growing old with him with lots of grandkids. (lol!)

Having a child for the very first time is not easy. E ano pa nga ba? I guess everybody can agree to that. You get weary and tired all the time. That is when my not so good eating habits started and lack of exercise followed. Kasi naman, sino ba naman ang hindi gaganahan kung masarap talaga ang food di ba! Kakapagod din kaya mag-alaga ng bata ano! Sabayan mo pa ng occasional mood swings and arguing with your hubby, then you make up for it afterwards. Making love two to three times a day made room for the second child. Then, it gets worst. Eto na! 

Of course, your hands are full. The "Me" becomes harder to get by. And of course, kain lang ng kain pagkatapos matutulog. The only exercise you get is mostly sa paglilinis ng bahay. It's not like your not looking at yourself in the mirror but it seems like the reflection you see doesn't really bother you at that time. (Denial Much!) You think it's just baby fats and will go away after a while. 

Your taste for fashion went down and you started wearing sweat pants and baggy clothes a lot. Your clothes don't fit you anymore so you needed a bigger size. Still not bothered! Talaga lang! After a while, you stop tracking and you wake up one day, you have a total of three children. And take note, I might not have varicous veins showing, but I do have stretch marks. Yayks! I know right! Kainis nga eh. I've been using cocoa shea butter for sometime now. I heard its good and helps reduce the appearance of stretch marks. I really hope so!(fingers crossed!)

Speaking of hopeful, Guess what? Baby fats? Hey, mirror look at me now, a skinny woman trapped in a fat woman's body. Whoopido! The fact that as you get older your body changes as well. You went from being skinny to curvy or from a twenty-ounce bottle to a gallon bottle. And that's life dear so, deal with it, right? Most women like me for example, go to drastic changes. The "Me" becomes "We" and priorities have been established. Our job is not that easy which of everybody knows and much more, it's free. Of course, you cannot charge your family for your time and services! Duh! You know the feeling of being frustrated sometimes, that you wished you don't have kids yet. Then you basically can have a lot of time to take care of yourself, do things you want to do and go anywhere you want to at any time. More freedom and less stress! Who wouldn't want that? Then suddenly as you are walking to the backyard and you see these awesome kiddos playing around, smiling and waving at you while yelling out for you "Mommy!" The thought earlier erased, as if you never thought of it. These kiddos might be a pain at times but also definitely my treasures.

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