Devoting Love

Wait, What The...

Jake and I have been kissing for at least five minutes now. We finally released each other to take a breather. We kissed for another five minutes and finally let go. I just started to stare at his gorgeous, blue eyes of his. Wait, Rachael, what are you saying. You don't like him anymore, you're dating Travis remember?

Oh my God, he's just so.....sexy. Shut up, Rachael, you don't know what your saying. You can't fall for him again, he's just going to hurt you like he did before. Just look at those eyes. Those adoring, blue eyes....wait, what? You need to cut this out, Rachael, he's just not worth it. Stop falling for his looks, it's stupid.

"What's wrong?" He asked all worried and assuringly. Those eyes of his, they just burn and puncture right through you. Stop! You need to stop this, Rachael.

"Oh, I was just thinking that's all. I'm thinking that we need to go to first period too." We get out of the janitor's closet and head to English class. Throughout the whole walk to English, Jake was trying to grasp my hand and hold it. I didn't allow him to do that anyway. We finally enter English and Mr. Bates was looking at us with a strange look on his face. He started yelling at us and told- more like ordered-us to go sit in our assigned seats.

"Where were you?" My friend Krystal asked with a worried tone in her voice. " I was walking to class thinking that you were right behind me, and I turned around and you weren't there. What happened?"

"Oh, um, nothing happened, I just forgot to get something out of my locker, and so I turned back around and went to get it out. Then Jake comes around and asks me if we can talk. We ended up going into a closet and the last thing I feel are soft, subtle-really soft- lips crashing onto mine."

She told me that she was looking staring at the door waiting for me to walk in any second. "Wait, so you kissed Jake? I thought you hated him for what he did to you?"

"I do, it's just he was the one who kissed me, and it's not like I'm going to go back out with him. I'm with Travis now and nothing is going to change that." I reassured her that I wasn't going to fall for him again, and I can finally tell she was calming down.

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School flew back really quickly and I was heading home. I decided to take the long way home, just driving though the park. I come to a stop, and notice a young couple kissing on a near bench. When I was watching kiss, I could just remember the time Travis and I had our first kiss. I was looking at the guy, seeing if he is trustworthy to this girl, then I notice something about him. He looked exactly like Travis. No, it can't be him.

I noticed his hoodie that he was holding in his lap, and I could picture that being Travis's hoodie. That can't be Travis's hoodie? I think to myself. His hoodie has the words REVENGE written across the chest in red. I take another look at this guy and notice he has on white shades that are covering his eyes. I spot a glimps of red on the hoodie and see the first four letters REVE written across, what I assume being the chest of the hoodie, in red.

He gives the girl a little smile, a flirty smile at that, right after they ended their kissing spree. That was when my heart sank. I see Travis's hoodie, his glasses, and his little flirty smile that he also gave  me when he and I started dating. I feel a tear running down my cheek, and I put my truck into drive and speed off.

When I got home, I was bawling, and cursing, and wishing things I would never wish for. I get out not even caring about my belongings, and ran upstairs crying my eyes out. My mom hears me slam the door and walks upstairs and asks me what was wrong.

"Nothing, I'm fine, mom." I say lying about me being fine. Nothing was fine, my life wasn't fine after what I just witnessed with my own two soaked eyes. I change into my PJs and climb into bed. I didn't want any crap from anybody at this moment...or maybe never.

My mom knocks on the door and asks if she can come in. I let her in and she notice that my eyes were all red and puffy, "What's wrong, sweety? What happened? Are you okay?" She asks me all worried, just like when Krystal was when I didn't show up for the first ten minutes of class.

"Nothing, it's fine, mom. You don't have to worry about me, I'll be fine." I lie. She caught me lying and asks me if she needs to kill anyone for me?

"Yeah, Travis."

"Travis? Well, what did he do sweety? " She asked all confused like she didn't know that he and I were going out.

"He cheated on me. " At this point I'm already crying. There's no stopping these tears from flowing. They have a mind of their own.

"Cheated on you? Sweety don't worry about crap like that. You're young, you have a long time to find love, you don't need to go with any of those assholes out there. It's just not worth getting your heart broken. " I sniffled my last sniffs. She makes a good point. Then the door bell started going off.

I walked downstairs to answere it. I opened the door and lo and behold, Travis is stadnding there with a big smirky grin plastered on his face. I slamed the door right in his face, and walk to the kitchen. He walks in right after me with, what looks to be like a confussed expression, taking the place of his grin.

"What was that for?" He asked. Gosh since when did he get all mad at me for?

"What flew up your ass Travis? Why are you yelling at me? What did I do to you?" I asked, not really shocked at all. To be honest I'm not only pissed, but I'm also amused by him being angry at me for no apparent reason.

"Nothing flew up my ass, if that's what your wondering? Why did you slam the door in my face?"

"Oh, that, yeah I did that to prove that I can't get my heart broken that easily. Hey, it worked." I say all exaggerated, waving my hands up in the air, and a little excited too.

"What? What are you talking about not getting your heart broken that easily? What do you mean heartbroken? I didn't do anything to you?" Now I can see the frustration coming across his face. He's getting really pissed now. Yeah!

"You didn't do anything to me? ARE YOU KIDDING ME RIGHT NOW!! You were kissing some other girl that was, oh I can assure you, was not your girlfriend!" Now he got my waters boiling and I am officially PO'd.

"What are you talking about, kissing someother girl. The only girl I kissed was you." That is complete bullshit right there, I can tell.

"Oh, BULLSHIT! Okay, so if you weren't kissing anybody, then tell me where you were right after school today?" I asked. This time I'm so going to get him in his own little web of lies.

" I was walking in the park, and I happen to bump into an old friend of mine. Why?"

"Oh, you bumped into her? Was it intentional or just by accident?" There was a sudden power to me now, I can feel it. I'm so going to win this fight.

" Um, it was by, um, accident. Yeah accident. " Now he's just studdering and sweating, I can sense it.

"Oh okay, so you are totally lying to me you cheating basterd."

"What, I'm not lying to you. Why would I lie to my favorite girl?" Ha! I caught him, he is so busted.

"Oh save it for someone who wants to hear that crap. It's over and when I mean over, I mean...bye-bye, so long sucker." I say and pushing him out of the door. He's so not getting off that easily. I'm strong and can take bullcrap like this whether it torments me or not.

He gets the hint and leaves without looking or talking back. Oh yeah, I'm good. My mom steps outside and joins me in my sudden victory of taking care of myself with the boys of the world. I see Travis's car drive off into the distance and that was the last time I've seen him. I turned back to head in my house, when I heard someone clear their throat behind me. I turn around and see Jake standing there looking all mysterious and sexy. He walks towards me and pulls me into him, giving me the biggest, most warming hug I have ever gotten.

"I miss you. Please come back to me? I don't want you in my life... I need you in my life." He says looking me straight in the eye. Those beautiful blue eyes that I once fell in love with, staring at me, waiting for an answere. He leans down and gives me this passionate, soft kiss on my lips.