You saved me- A phan love story

Nightmares- Chapter one

Phil POV- 

I walked into the living room with Dan playing guitar hero. I didn't even try to interrupt him knowing that once he was playing there was no snapping him out of it. I lay the groceries on the table and started to unpack them listening the Dan trying to play expert on his game. "How are you feeling?" I asked but Dan didn't reply. 

Dan was having a lot of issues lately which he didn't really like to talk about. Sometimes I would walk in from spending time in town and I would find him crawled into a ball crying and rocking. Sometimes he would be muttering something over and over but other times he would just be somewhere else, staring into space or somewhere much darker. He would be panicking over something very small or just be over whelmed. He would be in pain which just engulfed him so he was drowning in his own darkness to the extent where he couldn't stand to be alone with his own thoughts. 

It was becoming increasingly common to hear him screaming in the room opposite mine from a nightmare. That happened last night too. I heard him scream and cry like he was in agony and so I ran in to find him screaming into a pillow with his eyes closed but tears streaming like two waterfalls from them. "Dan!" I shouted but he just carried on crying stuck in his nightmare of who knows what "Dan!" I called again shaking him and he opened his cinnamon eyes which were struck with fear. He never tells me his nightmares mostly because I don't think he wants to re-live them but I worry about him. 

He finished his game of guitar hero and came into the kitchen to help me. "Hey." He said emotionless as he took out the pack of malteasers from the bottom of the bag and he sat on the breakfast bar opposite me. He popped the malteasers in his mouth and I smiled. He looked up at me with his eyes which was the same colour as the chocolate in his mouth and I looked back at him. 

There was a certain sadness to Dan's eyes now which seemed to grow darker every single day. I was scared to leave him along sometimes because I never know what he goes through when I'm gone. The pain that he must feel leading up to a panic attack and his points of hopelessness must be terrible. I never know if I'm going to come back to my best friend Dan or the Dan which was broken inside and needed my help to be repaired. 

The same night Dan had one of his nightmares. His piercing screams echoed through the darkness and ran straight through my ears and down my spine making me shoot up and run to his bedroom. He was kicking and screaming like he wanted to wake up but couldn't shake the darkness which kept him chained to his fears. I shook him until his damp tearful eyes flew open and locked onto mine 

"They were worse tonight." He told me whispering just loud enough for me to hear "...Stay with me..." he said sounding like a child. I crawled into his bed beside him. I wrapped my arms around him and held his hands under the covers. 

"I'm here now." I whispered to him 

"I don't like being alone, Phil." He said back to me 

"You will never be alone, I'll always be here to protect you from the dark." I meant it. Dan was my best friend in the whole world and I was his only friend.