You saved me- A phan love story

The phonecall- Chapter three

Phils POV

I was sitting down with my latte worrying about Dan when my phone lit up and his name was on the caller ID "Sorry I have to take this." I said to Chris and Pj knowing it was Dan but not mentioning it. They nodded and I pressed the green button to take the call as I walked away. "Hello? Dan?" I asked 

"...Phil?" Dan's weak voice said on the other end my heart sank because it sounded like he had been crying 

"Dan, what's wrong?" I asked frantically 

"I don't want to be alone." He said "I'm lonely..." 

"I'm on my way home now just stay where you are until I get back." I said on the other end knowing he was having one of his panic attack and those episodes where he needed me there when I wasn't. The phone line went silent "Dan?!" I called on the other end when all that replied was a dial tone. I ran up to Chris and Pj taking my jacket from the back of my seat "Sorry guys, Dan needs me and I have to go." They were so understanding and they knew about the tough time both Dan and I were having. 

I ran home as fast as I could because I knew this one was bad. Dan never really wanted my help but I just gave it to him. He call me though meaning that he didn't know how far he would go this time. I could see our apartment block now and I sped up. 

I threw open the door and I could see Dans knelling on the floor of the kitchen. I could hear him outburst in pain when I ran over and what I saw made me want to cry. He was kneeling down with a knife to his upper arm opening old cuts and adding to his scars 

"Dan!" I screaming ripping the knife from his hand and then he burst into tears. I pulled knelled down next to him and pulled him close to my chest as his blood spread onto my t-shirt but I didn't care. Dan was sobbing into my chest as I stroked his hair. He then stopped crying and pushed me back 

"I'm sorry..." He whispered "I told you I wouldn't but it was so dark..." 

"Dan I'm here now. And I'll never leave you."

"Promise?" 

"Promise." 

                                                              ************3 hours later***********

Once Dan had calmed down fully we sat on the sofa together and I put on an episode of adventure time. "Phil?" Dan asked sitting down next to me 

"Yeah?" I asked looking at him 

"I don't like you seeing me like that..." He said quietly looking at his feet. I didn't know how to reply because I understood why 

"I can help you." I put my hand on his knee and he flicked his eyes to my hand before meeting my eyes with his. He was stunning. He had these chocolate eyes which caught the light and right now they were glazed with tears and looked like a mirror. 

"I'm a lost cause." He said 

"You're not a lost cause, you're just lost." I was looking at him seriously "And everyone who is lost can be found and Dan Howell, I will be here as long as you need me and then a little longer. I can save you." He didn't say anything but just threw his arms around my neck and I hugged him back. He was so vulnerable and so fragile yet I feel like he was trying so hard to be strong around everyone. He was broken and I swore to myself that I could and would fix him. 

I turn Dan into the boy who was smiling and they would never be fake. I could fix him so that he saw the light and realised that this would isn't half as bad as they paint it out to be. We lay down on the sofa together under a blanket which just about fit both of us. He was still in my arms and I stroked his hair as the last episode of adventure time was just coming to end. He fell asleep and I did too next to him in this bliss. 

I didn't understand my feelings towards Dan though. He needed me and I was here. I feel when I'm around him he makes me feel complete even though he's a broken man. When he smiles I smile and when he cries I cry. I can look into his eyes and see a million stars. He is perfection and can't see it himself. Do I love him? Yes I love him but am I in love with him? Could he every love me back?