Dans POV
It was about ten in morning when I woke up still in the arms of Phil. I was trying to squirm out without waking him but but he just tightened his grip on me "And where are you going Mr. Howell." He said sleepily
"Pancakes and coffee," I replied feeling so much better today. I think knowing that Phil was going to be with me all day made me feel a lot better.
"Well then I'll help," He opened his eyes fully and let go of me.
We went into the kitchen and googled a good recipe. We came across one from Deila smith which made me think that maybe i should make a new video soon. The phandom was beginning to worry about me since I hadn't posted for about a month now but I've just been so sad now and I didn't have any inspiration other than Phil.
Phil was still making videos and the majority of his comments was asking where I was. He never mentioned me though because I didn't want him to but I think I should start again because I had a lot of fans who were still there for me. Maybe I should make a video thanking Phil for all that he's done... even though phangirls would take it the wrong way... maybe I should do a younow?.... Maybe I'll leave it. But what if i lose all my fans? What if they already all hate me? What if I can never go on the Internet again because of all the hate I'll get? There's already been more than five huge shitstorms on twitter that Phils told me about.
"Dan?" Phil asked probably seeing in my eyes and face I was panicking "What's wrong?"
"What if they hate me now?" I snapped not even realising I said anything
"Who?"
"The Internet! I haven't posted for around a month now and they'll probably all unsubscribe and hate me!" I was shouting now which I didn't realise it was what I was doing
"Then we can make a video together. We can just vlog about us getting ice cream down the road. Calm down." He said and I was hoping he would say something like that. I nodded and took a deep breath "You go watch TV And I'll make the pancake."
I didn't watch Tv, I watched Phil. He was so cute trying to cook because he got the flour all over the kitchen and couldn't flip a pancake for his life but he was so beautiful. The lights bounced of his slick black hair and I laughed really loud when Phil's pancake was stuck on the ceiling. This was when Phil knew I was watching him and he began to laugh himself. I loved this man so much... but he didn't love me back the way I wanted him too... I could feel myself getting panicky again so I stopped myself and looked at Phil smiling. Phil was the only person who could make me smile and it wouldn't be false. After pancakes I had a shower and then went with my video camera to get some ice cream with Phil.
Sorry for the crappy chapter but I kind of wanted Dan to be happy for a while :) New one coming soon. Follow me on twitter @Phanforever1
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You saved me- A phan love story
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