Okay. Don't worry, you've got this. Just don't think about. Lay still. Don't itch an itch. Happy thoughts.
I closed my eyes and rested my arms by my side. Moments later I was in my old world again. Things seemed different. I wonder if they'll be here. Just don't think about it. Right? Happy thoughts.
Everything began to get dark. I entered the dark side of my thoughts that I couldn't push out as much as I wanted. I had to face them.
Chris appeared from the darkness. "Hello, Love." He gave me a toothy grin. I smiled back and put my hand out. Our cold hands touched, our fingers locked, like they where a perfect fit. "What are you doing here? You know what happened last time. " He said pushing me down on the concrete ground. I looked him straight in the eye and whispered, "I couldn't resist. I had to." I grazed his jawbone with my index finger and staring at his lips. He was on top of me now. I was lost and I didn't know what was happening. "Its gonna kill you one day. You know that right? I don't want to loose you again." I looked up at him. It wasn't Chris anymore. Theo. I looked around. Everything changed. I was a hospital. The bright lights blinded me. "Please stay with me Izzy. Please. I love you. Co'mon." He ran with me until one of the doctors pulled me back. " What do we have?" A doctor asked. "17, Female. She wouldn't wake up, stop breathing. There's a pulse now. According to her boyfriend this has happened before." Another doctor said. I have to wake up. I was left in darkness again. Pure silence and all alone. My thoughts began surrounding me.
Theo? Or Chris.
You're father? Was that because of me?
Hows my mother.
I shouldn't have reacted that was to Theo.
I'm such a horrible person.
I shouldn't lead Chris on then tell him that I like Theo.
That was it.
Theo.
I need to clear things up with him.
My alarm had rang. I pushed myself up and threw the covers over. I heard a groan. I looked over to see a tan bear back. Shit. It was Theo.
