Dark Yearnings

Broken

    Damon sat out front of the Salvatore house for 20 minutes afraid to see Elena as much as he wanted to wrap his arms around her. He couldn't get the image out of his mind of her anger and judgement toward him at the cemetery. His phone vibrated, it was Stefan again. Damon hit ignore, and decided it was time to go inside. When he entered the large foyer he saw Elena was sitting on the sofa with her knees curled in her arms. Stefan was in a chair across from her. He approached Damon, put his hand on his shoulder consolingly and headed up stairs to his room. Damon walked into the main living room and poured himself a drink. Elena was sulking, he did his best not to stare. It was so hard to not sweep her up in his arms. "I loved her to, you know." He stated after sipping his bourbon and sitting in Stefans chair.

    "I know." she cried looking up to meet his eyes. Seeing her like this was devastating.

    "I'm so sorry Elena. God I'm s sorry." He cried kneeling on the floor beside her. She placed her hand on his. Damon lifted his head to meet her tear filled eyes. "We can bring her back, there's always a way Elena." Damon pleaded.

    "Not this time Damon. Not this time." She put her hand on his shoulder. "I can't live like this anymore Damon. All this death all this pain. I want a normal life I want children and I want them to be safe." She cried harder.

    "I know baby I know, and we can have that. I'll take the cure." He pleaded sitting up on the sofa with her and brushing her hair out of her face.

    "No Damon, I cant be with you. I lose myself in you and it feels amazing until I realized how much of myself I've lost. I don't want you to change for me. I don't want to be the person I became." She sat up straight and Damon held his head down on his hands listening. "You only want to be human to be with me right? If I wasn't around would you want to be human Damon?" She stared at him already knowing the answer.

    "That doesn't matter Elena, you are here and I don't care if I change for you." He said angrily.

    "I'm sorry but I do care. I don't want to be on the run my whole life, I don't want to live in a world of the supernatural, and I don't want to separate you and Stefan." She stood up and grabbed a duffle bag beside the couch Damon hadn't noticed before.

    "Elena wait." Damon begged.

    "Please let me go Damon. Please." She pleaded. Damon stared into her eyes he couldn't believe this was happening. He saw Stefan in the hall way failing at holding back his tears. Elena wrapped her arms around Damon and gave him one last kiss. A goodbye forever kiss. She backed up and headed for the door. She stopped to hug Stefan.

    "I don't know if I can do this Elena." Stefan muttered while trying to maintain his composure. She held his face in her palm.

    "You'll be fine Stefan, I know you will. Take care of Damon okay." She turned to the foyer and Damon speed to the door. Elena stopped in her tracks and looked at him with a pleading stare. Damon lowered his head and opened the door for her. She gave him a small smile and walked outside.

    "Elena!" Damon called. She turned to face him and he threw something to her. When she opened her hand she saw it was the keys to his car. She looked up at his face.

    "Goodbye." He said sadly. She thanked him with a sad expression and Damon stepped back inside closing the door behind him. Stefan was sitting on the stairs with his face in his hands. Damon felt numb, he wasn't crying, he wasn't even sure he was in reality. Did he really just lose Elena, did he just let her go. He ran to the door but his car and his heart were gone. He knew she deserved better, he even told her it in the past, so why was it so hard to accept it now. Stefan watched Damon for a moment and when he didn't go off the rails he returned to his room to vent in his journal.

    When Stefan walked into his room he was over come with emotion. He stared at the bed they had laid on so many times together. He went to his desk and pulled out a journal. He noticed a photo on his shelf Elena had made him with stickers and designs on the frame. He cried briefly and then got angry he tore his journal apart and destroyed his bed linen. He decided to go hunt he wanted to kill and rip something apart. He stepped out on to his balcony and a hand grabbed his shoulder.

    "Where you going?" Damon asked grabbing Stefan before he leaped from the balcony.

    "I need to rip something apart." He growled.

    "Okay brother, lets go." Damon grinned and the two leapt from the balcony and headed through the woods.

    Elena was driving just off the border of Mystic Falls. She was so tired but she didn't want to stay at Stefan and Damons over night. She was afraid they would convince her to stay. They were both very capable of changing her mind. She asked Stefan not to tell anyone she had awoken. She wanted a clean break. Her eyes were burning and she was struggling to keep them open when she noticed a small motel on the side of the road. She pulled in hoping it wasn't too late to get a room. She pulled in next to an old black muscle car. She immediately thought of the Salvatores ad their love of classic cars. She began to wish she had Stefan compel her memory. It was going to be a long time before little things stopped reminding her of her life with them. She rung the small silver bell at the counter and a scrawny teenager came to the desk. She paid for the room with some cash Stefan had given her. She signed in under a false name to help prevent anyone from tracking her down. She gave the boy a polite smile and walked to her room. She noticed a strange man in a trench coat stood in the walk way.

    "Excuse me. Sir are you okay?" She asked regarding the man with sincere concern.

    "I'm fine thank you." Castiel replied turning to face her. He couldn't believe it, she was identical to Katherine, only a much sweeter demeanor. Castiel tried not to look to surprised to see her.

   "Okay well good night." Elena replied unlocking her room and leaving the angel outside. She threw her bag on the bed side table and rummaged through for some pajamas. She was startled by banging against the wall, then she heard the moans and smiled shaking her head. Someones getting lucky she thought. She entered the bathroom brushed her teeth and tied her hair back. When she came out the happy couple were still going at it so she popped in some head phones, and began to write in her journal. She got three lines in about Bonnie and the pen fell from her hand as she passed out from exhaustion.

    Castiel appeared into Elenas room and looked through her belongings for the cure. Of course it wouldn't be that easy. She began to weep in her sleep. Castiel turned to watch the whimpering girl. He could almost feel her pain. He placed his finger on her head and her weeping stopped, a smile broke out on her face and she snuggled deeper into her pillow. Castiel decided to wait till morning to tell the others. Dean would be angry if he burst in while he was asleep and Elena looked so peaceful, surely they could ask her about the cure in the morning.