Well, This Bloody Sucks

...And Relief

In the white, I find that although I committed suicide, I still have some sort of conscious. It's as if I'm in some sort of coma. Although, I have no idea what being in a coma feels like. All that I know is that I'm in some sort of state where I can't move, but I can still feel the pain of the knife in my heart. I can feel my body losing its warmth. I can feel someone clutch their arms around me. And then I hear a terrifying voice.

"Her heart is mine!" I hear Richter yell, and then next thing I know I hear the sickening sound of sword meeting flesh and the sound of pained gasps.

No...If Ayato died...

"Hey, open your eyes." Ayato pleads quietly. He's still alive...sort of.

But I see the light as my eyes open and I know that I'm not doing this by my own will.

"Only a foolish girl would stab herself." Cordelia's voice comes out of my mouth. "Stupidity like that just makes me laugh. It's just a matter of time of time before The Awakening is complete and she dies for good. And when that time comes, her very soul and her body will be mine for good. Mine until the end of time." And with that, Cordelia returns to her dormant state and my eyes close without a fight once again.

At least no-one else is hurt. As soon as I die and Cordelia wakes up, they can kill her. God, at least let them do that, for me.

"I can't believe that she's go and stab herself." A voice calls speaks out. "Seems like our Little Bitch has more guts than we thought." Thank you Laito.

"She's caused a lot of trouble, for a girl who's supposed to be bait." I try my best, Shu.

"So what happens next? Do you think her body will just disappear?" Kanato asks.

"Subaru." Ayato calls out, ignoring the question. "What do I do? Is it ok to pull the knife out now?"

"No." Subaru stops him. "You should let me do it." And then I feel the knife being gently pulled out of me and I almost feel empty. I shouldn't be feeling like that. I should be grateful that the knife was taken out.

Ayato holds me in a firmer grip and carries be bridal-style down the stairs and lays me to rest and one of the sofas. With the way that my hair is, it's crushed between the armrest and my head feels uncomfortable but I can't do anything but withstand the discomfort. Somehow, Ayato sensed this and lifted my head to gently undo the bun Cordelia made when she took over my body earlier, and place my head back down on a pillow.

Thank you, Ayato.

Although this is going to leave my hair really tangled.

"It looks like she's getting paler." I hear Kanato comment. "I didn't think that was possible for her skin tone."

Well, aren't you quite the flatterer?

"She could awaken at any minute." Shu replies.

Oh, crap, no.

"There has to be some way to drive the old bitch out of her." Ayato encourages.

"Reiji is working on a potion as we speak." Shu calms him down.

I just hope that it works. So far, it seems that it's the only flicker of hope in this endless night.

I suddenly grunt in pain. It hurts so damn much. I feel like my soul is splitting in two and one half is trying to control the other and vice versa. Then I realise, I'm fighting against Cordelia for my body. I'm fighting for my life.

And if I don't succeed, that flicker of hope that I mentioned is going to die along with me.

"Seems like she's in a lot of pain, doesn't it?" Kanato asks a little while later.