I did what he said, I focused on his blue orbs, his hair messily falling to his eyes, sticking to his forehead because of his sex sweat, his mouth open as he heavily breathed and I screamed out his name as I came, but I didn’t dare to take my eyes off of him.
After the dinner, I went up as Niall told me to and I found him asleep in my bed. He was lying on his side, face turned to my side of the bed, his mouth slightly opened. Seeing him like this gave me cuddly feelings which I shouldn’t be having, not towards him, not now. I lay down next to him and felt shivers. It’s been a long long time since we’ve slept together like this. It was that time in his lake house. After that, we only met at school because my dad managed to find out about it. We still had sex, though, but somewhere in the school, and once he sneaked into my house, but Rosa came back from the store early and he had to sneak out again. So naturally, it brought back a lot of memories. To be honest, the only time I’ve felt close to someone in this way was back then, when I was with him. And since Rosa died, I couldn’t feel that again. Could I feel close to him now? I hoped not. He wasn’t the same innocent kid I thought he was. I was mistaken all along. He wasn’t the person I thought he was, and it was becoming clear to me that I shouldn’t have come with him in the first place, but it was done already. I pulled the duvet over him and lay my head close to his, but I was careful not to touch him, I didn’t want him to get mad at me for getting „sentimental“. I just gazed at him, took in all the things I didn’t see for a long time – his perfect little nose, his eyelashes almost touching his flushed cheeks, his blonde hair falling messily to his forehead, his lips moving slightly while he was sleeping. This man was perfection. I listened to his slight breathing and I closed my eyes.
I was woken up by Niall kissing me gently on the lips. I wasn’t quite expecting this, but I kissed him back. He pulled away to lean on his elbow, looked at me for a few seconds in complete silence and then he kissed me again. It wasn’t that horny kind of kiss, an interlude to sex, this was different. He closed his eyes as our lips softly touched, his hot breath touched my face and I breathed in his scent.
I was astonished by this change of behavior, to say the least.
-Are you okay?-I asked.
-Let’s not talk now, babe.-he said and kissed me once again.
Babe? He used to call me that. What was going on? First he tells me not to get sentimental, and now he kisses me likes this, calls me like he used to… I liked the change in his behavior but I knew it couldn’t last for long. Good things just never last. And if they last, they get corrupted. So I’d better enjoy it while it lasts.
He cupped my cheek and I put my hands around his neck. His warm hand roamed my body and stopped at my hip. He started to rub me over my underwear, but then he changed his mind, obviously not wanting to lose any time, he put his hand inside of my underwear. He stared at my eyes as he rubbed me up and down, but this time he was gentle. He wanted to please me this time. I moaned into his neck as he started to rub harder.
-Is this good, do you like it?-he looked up to meet my gaze.
-Yes, yes, it’s great.-I nodded.
I saw him smile as he looked down again and put a finger inside of me, then quickly adding another one and curling them up because he knew I loved that. I moaned into his ear, trying to be as quiet as possible since it was early morning. All this time, my mouth was so close to his neck that I just had to start kissing it, he smelled so good, he smelled like Niall. No perfume, no cologne, just him and that was my favorite scent. His thumb started rubbing my clit while his fingers were inside of me and I stopped thinking about this romantic stuff and just surrendered to the feeling of pleasure he caused. My skin got sensitive, I felt his every touch, I felt his breath on my body, I felt his fingers move inside of me like they belonged there. It just seemed natural. He pulled his fingers out quickly and got on top of me, which I didn’t expect. I thought he would want me to suck him off and be all bossy about it, but no, he was still sweet.
