Waiting For Tomorrow

Proving Grounds

I wake to a cold morning and feeling as though i'm covered in ice. I jump out of bed since it's time to get up anyway and walk to my window.

"Why does it always have to be freezing in summer mornings and then it gets hot later in the day," I mutter to myself drawing a face in my fogged up window.

I walk to my dresser and get changed into a light blue shirt and black jeans. After I am all ready I start heading towards to door saying good morning to my brother on the way, but then something stops me....I feel an hand grip around my wrist pulling me back and turning me around.

"Is everything okay this morning?" Mum asks looking into my eyes. This is so weird, why is she acting like this? Why is she worried? She doesn't even like me.

"Yes." I reply tiredly.

"Okay, well make sure you tell me if anything's wrong." She says.

As she lets go of me I quickly rush to the door and head to school.

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I walk into class ignoring everyones censorious glares. I quietly walk to the back of the room where Tyler, Oscar and Clayton are sitting, having many words thrown at me such as attention, loser, whore, stupid, useless, trash on the way.

"Just ignore them Silva." Tyler mumbles, still a bit emotional from last night.

"They're fucking idiots." Clayton says with anger. So Clayton and Oscar aren't with them, well I guess it's because they're friends with Tyler.

I nod agreeing with what Clayton said.

"You're much better than they are." Tyler says.

I smile at him, it warms my heart that anyone would actually say something like that to me.

When I sit down I notice Kim relentlessly staring at me, I can't tell if it's anger in her eyes, humor or pity. It makes me so confused, she sometimes seems as though she actually cares about me or she feels uncomfortable bullying me and then all of a sudden she turns into a massive bitch.

She quickly stands up and starts to head my way.

"Silva, I umm...i'm really sorry." She apologizes. What? Why would she? Has she had a fight with the girls or something?

I look up at her confused as she taps her fingers on the desk in front of me.

"I am sorry," She repeats, "Sorry for the way I have been bullying you for all this time." She seems so penitent.

I am shocked, I repeat her fathomless words in my head trying to understand.

"I understand I haven't been doing things right....I haven't been bullying you bad enough." She ruthlessly chuckles breaking the ephemeral feeling of regret and grabbing my sketch book from in front of me running to the front of the room and flicking through the pages before I can stop her.

"Ohhh Silvee, whats with all of the depressing drawings?" She says as I quickly jump up and run towards her trying to get it off of her.

To think that all this time I thought she was the nice one. I hate people seeing my drawings, not that I have anything that bad in there, all the bad and really depressing drawings are in a book at home which I have hidden.

"Show me Kim." Regina exclaims looking at the book.

Just after I got up, Tyler and his friends all jump to their feet heading the front of the room.

"What a fucking loser you are Silva." Tabitha yells.

Where is the teacher, why isn't she here. I am so sick of all of this.

"Stop guys, this is not funny." Oscar yells grabbing the book off of Kim who is holding it up in the air trying to not let anyone get it, Oscar is tall so no one can try that trick on him and succeed.

Why did Oscar stick up for me, I was surprised when Tyler did it, now Oscar too. He was probably just doing it for Tyler.

Oscar makes his way to me putting his hand out to give the book to me, but I just collapse to the floor falling to my knees with my face in my hands and crying once again. I tried to hold this in, but I couldn't anymore, I am so sick of this world.

Tyler bends down and rubs my back reassuring me that it will be okay.

"Silva, whats wrong?" Mrs Osborne asks in shock as she enters the room. When a teacher enters the classroom, one thing they are not expecting to see is a student on the floor in tears with a class crowding around with vibrant regaled looks on their faces and looking like they have all just been having the time of their lives.

I ignore her question sobbing quietly into my hands and trying to stop the crying.

"Maybe you boys should take her outside just to catch her breath," Mrs Osborne quietly says followed by moving her attention the the rest of the students, "And I want all of you to clean this classroom up now."

Tyler gently pulls me to my feet and puts his arm around me as they direct me outside.

"It's okay Silva, it's gonna get better, I promise, we won't let them get away with how they treat you." Clayton quietly says to me with a smile trying to make me feel better.

A/N Sorry for the short chapter

Proving Grounds - Attila