Find U

part 9

 **Yes, it's the last part thanks for reading ''Find U'', I'm not really sure if I'm happy with this part but.... it is what it is.. you know**

- PART NINE -

Louis POV:

Soon we’re outside a big white old-fashioned house surrounded by beautiful red roses.

“So… this is my house” The lady says and smiles brightly.

“It’s so beautiful….” I say not moving my eyes away from it.

We walk inside a small grind, it creaks a little.

I breathe in the smell of roses and freshly cut grass, the sun burns my neck.

“Thanks” She says and turns around smiling big, “Come let me show you the backyard” She continues and we walk through the house, the furnishing is mostly in white and light oak tree.

A painting easel is placed close to one of the big windows in the living room with an empty painting canvas.

“You paint?” I ask and she shakes her head.

“No… that hasn’t been used that for a long time…” She says quiet.

“Oh…” I say and she opens the door out to the backyard.

“I love to take care of my garden, it’s such a calming thing to do in a stressful community like this” She says and smiles while looking at the garden.

It was a truly amazing garden, so beautiful.

A lot of rose bushes, some statues, a big tree with a little bench underneath it and an old fountain.

It wasn’t the biggest garden but big enough, the size just made it look cosy.

“I’ve never seen such a beautiful garden before” I say and she smiles.

“Thanks, it took me a while to get it like this…” She says still viewing it.

“I guess it was worth it” I say and smile at her.

“Yeah, it really was” She agrees and then walks back into the house, “Want something to drink?” She asks.

“Yeh, thanks” I say and she’s gone in the doorway.

I walk over to the little bench underneath the tree to escape the boiling hot sun.

I rest my head against the tree trunk while tilting my head up to look at the branches, it seemed to be so many, some rays of sun sneaks in between them.

What am I going to do without Harry?

Why’s the sun so bright when my future wills be so dark?

Will I be able to live a normal life again?

Without him, without family, without friends?

Yes, I’m all alone.

Shouldn’t I be glad I survived the car crash?

No, why should I?

When my whole family died, why would I be glad?

I was just lucky but I don’t feel lucky.

What if I’ve had died?

Never been sitting here in the sun thinking of this, just died as the others.

Not watching the sun sneaking through the branches, never met the nice lady, never seen the red river and never been trying to find Harry.

At least I tried, but should I give up?