Shawn Mendes Imagines

Coming out.

OKAY! Warning, This isn't about Shawn, this is you coming out! I don't know, I just thought it would be funny! :) so, if you a homophobe, YOU MAY WANNA SCROLL DOWN AND SKIP! Alrighty now, bye!

Your P.O.V

How was I going to put this out to Shawn. I've been thinking it for a while. I truly love him. I really do. But I have to tell him that I am officially Bisexual. I don't have any feelings for any girls. I just don't think it's right to keep it from him.

"Shawn, baby, can we talk." I say, walking down the stairs where Shawn was playing his guitar.

"Don't tell me you want to break up!" Shawn through his guitar on the couch. I shook my head and Shawn sighed, flopping down on the couch again.

"No, I don't at all want to break up with you. I love you. I hope you know that." I say. Shawn smirked at me.

"I know (Y/N). I do. What is it?" Shawn asks, he licked his lips. I sat down on the single chair and thought of a way to say it. I opened my mouth, nothing came out. What if he leaves me? Why would he want to be with a bisexual person. He'll feel uncomfortable with me even hanging out my chick friends!

"Go on. What is it?" Shawn looked worried. I felt tears build up in my eyes, but I managed to make them stay there.

"Shawn, I'm bisexual." The words spilled out, rapidly. I closed my eyes, scared.

"Do you have feelings for a girl? Is that how this came up?" Shawn asked. I kept my gaze at the floor.

"No. I did a really long time ago, but tried to hide it. I just couldn't hide it from you anymore." I say. Shawn stood up.

"I'm sorry (Y/N). I just, I don't know how to be with a bi person! How would I know if you had feelings for one of your friends? I mean, it's now possible!" Tears poured down my face. I didn't want him to leave me.

"But, I've hung out with them this entire time we've been together and I don't feel that way for them! I love you! I never would feel anything for anybody else." I say. I kept crying.

"I.. I-I need to get out." Shawn grabbed his keys off of the key holder by the door.

"Where are you going?" I ask.

"Just... Out." Shawn slammed the door in my face. I couldn't help but cry. I cried so hard. I rushed up to my room and locked myself in the bathroom. I've only cut myself once in my life. I did it when I was only 14. I'm 22 now. It's been a while since I've seen these blades.

I sat by the wall and cried. I held the blade in my hand, as it shook. I stared at my wrist. Scars were left from the ones a while ago. But only about two. I didn't know if this is what I wanted to do with myself. I questioned it for a while until throwing the blade on the ground. I couldn't do it. It would be stupid of me to.

I walked out of the bathroom, shaking for how bad I scared myself. I was still crying. I laid on our bed. I shook. I cuddled myself into my knees as tears rushed out of my eyes. Eventually I fell asleep.

I woke up to loud bang, coming from the front door. I stayed in my position, figuring Shawn was just going to get his stuff and leave. I cried once again. I heard stuff chuffing downstairs and I knew he was getting his things. I checked the time, 10:16 pm. I looked away and stared out my window.

The door to our bedroom flew open, I didn't look. I just led light tears fall from my eyes. Then, I felt a body come onto me. It was hugging me. I looked over and Shawn was hugging me. I looked completely shocked. Shawn looked like he had been crying. Well, just recently. Then a tear came down his cheek and I knew he was crying from the sight of me crying.

"I'm so so sorry. That was extremely fucked up of me for leaving. I can't believe I'm such a douche." I wiggled myself to where I could look at his now pale face.

"Yes. Your a big douche." I say, Shawn closes his eyes with a sigh.

"Shawn, I love you and only you. Don't think for a second I want to leave you for a girl. Plus, I don't think I would want to date a girl. I can't even picture myself dating anyone else Shawn. No matter the gender. I can't. I can only picture me with you." I say. I smiled, I moved his hair around. He smiled.

"I'm sorry. I love you too. And I can't imagine me with anyone else either." Shawn put his chin onto mine as I cuddled into his chest.