sweets ✧ r.kaji ˣ ʳᵉᵃᵈᵉʳ

41: deeper still

y/n's.sandwich
7:49 pm

enomotos gonna be mad

i'll tell him we went on a date
he wont mindd

huh
wjat date
arent we justvditching
wdym date

you and i r going on a date 😼

what

unkess you dont want to then thatd completely fine and i wknt force you into doinng anything you arent comfortable with so js lmk if yiure ever yk hesitant ir sknething cus then we coyld always not skip at all!! its fine!

NO
thats not

oh

i want to go with you
on tge date
im not uncomfortable with anything
where?

oh :D
anywhere youd like is gwenchana
theres a desserts shop i saw looked yummy tho

lets go there tomorrow then
for brunch

yayy ok
see you then kajiii
*message loved by you

see you
*message loved by y/n's.sandwich

"fuck..."

kaji tossed his phone onto his bed and covered his blushing face with his hands. the thoughts and doubts droning around in his mind didn't stop, just like the thought of y/n's probably smiling face.

was i too dry? i made a lot of typos. my hands were shaking. ugh, that was cringe. how could she do this? i'm supposed to be the one to ask her out! you dumbass...

and that "yayy" and "see you then kajiii"... why did this woman have to keep being so damn cute even over text? the distressed boy spun around faster and faster on his spinning chair.

butterflies? pigeons? no, it was something else, but kaji couldn't pinpoint just what it was he was feeling. although one of the emotions in his brain was definitely frustration; at his own incompetence, at his own stupidity, and at her heart-racing antics. she wasn't even trying to do anything, but he got all excited over one date. over one girl.

"argh! i can't do this anymore!" he stood up in a flash and grabbed his phone with force before pausing. should he tell kusumi and enomoto? could he? if he did, they'd be so annoying, but at least he could get some advice out of them. no, could he?

damn you, y/n! how come your friends are smart while mine aren't?! this is unfair!

but then again, he thought, everything about her was unfair. her pretty face. her even prettier personality. that enticing voice. her caring touch.

was kaji really the one to blame for falling for y/n? what he couldn't believe was how she actually liked him back. an absolute goddess loving an ordinary, high-maintenance, short-tempered, not even handsome (in his opinion) delinquent. it was all her fault! she played dirty, and the boy did everything he could to convince himself of that.

then that time at the playground on valentines day, did she like him back then too? kaji recalled that she had said something about it when she confessed, but he was too flustered at the time to properly understand and memorize every word she spouted out. if only...

his phone was being clutched so hard that it shook. kaji sighed and let go. there's no way she would date him if he got mad that easily. if he lost control and if she were around to see that—he was too scared to think of what would happen.