birds // hs

8. Virgins

Harry and I left Seattle a few days later and returned home, where my mom promised to keep us in the loop of any new case developments on the shooting. For now they just had the bullets and some tire tracks.

"I think it's a load of crap," Harry rolled his eyes. "They're not doing jack shit to find those people."

I just laughed and lifted James out of the sink, where he had just had his nightly bath. "What do you think they're doing then? Eating donuts?"

"And probably doing crosswords!"

"Probably."

"Don't mock me," he squinted, setting his bottle of beer aside. "I will spank you right here right now if I have to, little girl."

"Sure you will, daddy."

He sank his teeth into his bottom lip and groaned. "Shit, don't do that. I'm already hard."

I shrugged nonchalantly. "I don't know what you're talking about."

"Fucking tease."

"Language!"

"Freaking tease. Better?"

"I still don't like being called names."

"Even baby girl?"

"That's different."

"How about sunshine?"

I smiled at him. "That's my favorite."

He wrapped his strong arms around my waist and kissed my hair gently. "Want to know my favorite?"

"Yes."

"My girl."

I hummed slightly and picked James up off the counter, his wide eyes beginning to drift closed as he rested on my chest.

"Here, I'll put him down," Harry volunteered with a grin. "Are you coming to bed now?"

"Um, actually I had something I wanted to talk to you about," I sighed. "Could you come back down here after he's asleep?"

"Yeah, of course." He cradled James close to his bare chest and kissed my cheek, then left me alone with my thoughts.

What was the best way to do this? Should I rip the bandaid off or should I sugarcoat it?

"So I was thinking we could go see my mum and stay with her for a couple of days if-"

"How did you lose your virginity?"

He stared at me blankly. "What?"

"How did you lose your virginity?" I repeated, much softer this time.

"Oh, er...in high school, just like everyone else. It was nothing special." He looked incredibly uncomfortable and that only made me push harder. What was he hiding?

"Who was your first?"

He let out a huff and came to stand in front of me, his face twisted into annoyance as I waited patiently for his answer.

"Why are you asking me all these questions? Are you worried about something?"

"Well...you said some stuff when you were drugged in the hospital. And I don't know what to do with this information."

Suddenly he looked very concerned. "What did I say?"

"You-You said that you took Caroline's virginity in the back of her dad's truck. And," I had to take a shaky breath. "She took yours, too."

"Oh." He licked his lips and sighed, his eyes sad and apologetic as his hands came to rest on my hips. "I'm sorry you had to hear that."

"Harry, you lied to me," I spoke, my voice heavy with disappointment. "You told me you never thought of her that way. You said you were just friends and nothing more."