Summer Love

Chapter 25

Walking into school couldn't have been any more awkward. Not holding Lukes hand. The emptiness on my finger. My smile non existent. I felt dead inside. Like when Luke left he took my soul with him and now I'm just a walking body. Luke of course was hanging out with Eve again, not that I would be surprised. He couldn't stop looking my way every couple seconds with a sad look. It hurt seeing him sad but I wasn't going to give in because him trying to force me into sex hurts the most. I feel like that's all he cares or cared about.

"Melissa? Could you please answer the question?"

I looked up at the teacher, like a dear in front of headlights. I looked down at my paper trying to see what I wrote but the words were blurry. I reached my hand out to point at my paper and noticed my hands were shaking. I closed my eyes and covered my face with my hands. I started crying and coughing.

"I-I just n-need to go home." I whispered standing up and grabbing my things.

I hurried out of the room and heard the class laughing. I ran out of the school and all the way home.

My dad sat on the couch watching TV when he saw me. I rushed over to him and hugged him.

"It hurts dad." I cried.

"What hurts?"

"My heart." I sobbed.

"You don't have to go to school till you feel better, okay?" He let me know.

I nodded and got up. I wiped my face and walked up stairs. I walked into my room and climbed on my bed. I laid and stared at the wall.

The next few days were spent staring at the wall considering the fact that I cried out all my tears. But today I had to go back to school seeing that I've missed 5 days. Homework had to be piling up.

I groaned and walked into school. Once people have noticed me laughter filled the hallways along with people throwing paper airplanes and paper balls at me. I walked to my locker and froze as I saw the word slut written in red spray paint. I looked around before opening the locker to grab my things. I softly closed my locker and walked to my class with my books held tightly to my chest. I walked down to my classroom and took a seat. Everyone walked in and took their seat. Luke took a seat in the row next to me only two seat back. I turned my head and looked over at Luke only to find him staring at me. I looked down in front of me and took a deep breath.

The bell ring making me jump. I listened to the teacher tell us to read chapters 15-18 in class. I opened my book and began reading.

"Mel!" Luke whisper shouted.

I ignored him.

"Missy!"

I rolled my eyes.

"Ugh." He groaned.

I went back to reading and not long after a peace of crumpled up paper landed in front of me. I grabbed it and faced Luke. Instead of opening it I threw it back at him. I turned back around and the paper flew back in front of me. I opened it and read it.

'Are you alright? What happened?"

I ripped off an edge of one of my homework's and wrote.

"None of your business."

I threw it at him and read. I finished just as the bell rung. I hurried to the door but Luke stopped me and pulled me back to my seat. I sat down and watched everyone leave. He sat on my desk.

"Now what happened?"

"You really wanna know what happened?" He nodded.

"What happened was I fell in love with you! I should have just let you go after the whole stunt you pulled. I don't want to love you. You broke me and I feel so lost right now."

"Missy-"

"Out relationship was not mutual. I love you and you love sex. I gave you my all. I don't know if you appreciated any of it. I don't know what made you think of giving me a promise ring. The promise was broken which probably means we aren't meant to be together. Just go back to Eve. She'd been the one who can give you want you want an. I'll go back to being the Pastors daughter who is all about God because I know God loves me back." I finished and breathed heavy.

"You want to know what made me give you a promise ring? Because I love you! I don't love sex. I love you more than anything. I don't want Eve or anyone else but you! You are the only one in my life I actually look forward to everyday. I look forward to seeing you smile and laugh. And I haven't seen that for 6 days. I'm not sure how I'm even still alive to be honest." He finished with a scoff.

I gasped at his last sentence.

"What do you mean you don't know how your still alive?" I asked sternly.

"Out of everything I just fucking confessed, you ask about that?" He shouted.

"Luke I- I believe every word. N-now what do you mean?" I asked hesitantly.

"You believe me?"

I nodded hesitantly.

He smiled and cupped my cheeks, pressing his lips into mine. I sighed and sat my hands on his wrists. I've missed this so much. He pulled away and looked down at his lap.

"There's a lot you don't know about me Missy." He spoke shakily.

I sat my hand on his knee and rubbed them softly. He looked up at me and took a deep breath.

"Since middle school I was depressed. I was bullied because I was fat. I hid my pain from my family by harming myself. In the middle of 8th grade my parents got a Divorce. That cause me to uh- to- er-." He reached up and covered his face.

I didn't know what was happening till I heard a sob. I stood up and wrapped my arms around him. I rubbed his back soothingly and hushed him.

"You don't need to finish." I whispered, kissing his shoulder.

"Yes I do." He shouted causing me to jump back and run into the desk.

He looked at me and stood up.

"I'm sorry. I didn't mean to scare you."

"It's okay Luke."

"I tried to kill myself." He whispered causing me to start crying.

I put my hands over my mouth and buried my face into his chest.

"I got sent to a therapist and took antidepressants. I was happy till my dad tried to come back into my life. I then was diagnosed with bipolar disorder. As to why I'm such a dipshit to you. I don't mean to. I just haven't been taking my pills recently. I didn't want you to know how messed up I am." He finished and hugged me.

I pulled away and backed away from him. He looked up at me and sniffed.

"What? Why did you walk away." He frowned.

"I don't deserve you. I-I'm a screw up. I-I wished you told me sooner." I sobbed.

"Your joking. All I want is you. If anything I don't deserve you! Missy, I love you so much it hurts. You gotta believe me." He begged.

He stood up and made his way over to me. I looked down in shame only to have Luke use two fingers to lift my chin up to look at him. He looked back and fourth at my eyes.

"I love you Missy." He whispered.