Thinking Out Loud

16

i wait here
in my room
wanting to rip everything
to shreds

but i don't
because everything in
this room gives me
comfort

i want to be consumed
by the darkness
that awaits when i
close my eyes

because there i feel
comfort
that no one could ever
give to me

so i sit here
in this room
completely surrounded
by darkness

but i want to live
in the dark forever
because i'm struggling
to hold on

i want to be okay again
i want everything
to be okay again
but it can't

and it won't ever be
so i look down
at my hands
and let tears fall

i garb the silver
paintbrush
and paint in red
along my skin

because now i'm
consumed by
darkness
and it feels good

the darkness
give me comfort
it gives me a place
to call home