Make or break

chapter 11

Japan was amazing,Switzerland was awesome,Scotland was fantastic, England was pretty cool, Ireland was awesome of course visited some family why I was there, Canada is kinda like American but not India was really good

Right now we are in Chicago I'm meeting my little sister for the first time today I put on blue ripped skinny jeans, 'school sucks start a band' Distressed muscle tee,gray converts,black leather finger gloves ,my glasses, flower crown with pink flowers and my phone case ' no pictures please' my makeup is normal I grab one of Michael's leather jacket's because I'm cool like that

I knock on the door to my cousin's house every one is staying at my girls are behind me,the guys had a interview,Alroy answers the door I give him a big hug walking in "she's in the living room," Alroy tells me my little sister Madeline Ava is so close to me

Walking into the living room I see Casey laying on the floor with a golden retriever puppy, Andrew playing with a train, David with Grace his girlfriend, Sean on his phone, Katy watching whatever is on the t.v. uncle Bob has Charlie on his lap,Jack and Finn on Karen's lap then I spot my sister Madeline sitting on a little chair with a doll moving it around

I walk over to her slowly sitting on the floor,the girls sit by my family "hi I'm your sister Kels," I tell her in a soft voice I take off my gloves and jacket

she turns her head to me,her bright blue eyes looking at me, she sets her doll down, Madeline's little body gets up,her small hand grabs mine I stand up after she grabs my hand her,light brown hair moving as she walks she takes me to the balcony David lives in a apartment in downtown Chicago so from his apartment you can see the whole city she closes the glass door after I walk out, the balcony has a beautiful metal railing,it's big for a balcony it has 4 lounge chairs, a fire pit, a grill, and a old beautiful wooden picnic table refinished Madeline walks over to the metal railing

" Вы можете говорить?" (Can you speak ?) I ask looking at the side of her , she grabs the metal railing then turns her head to look at me her eyes brighten up

" Я немного знаю Российская," ( I know a little Russian) I add she turns her head back at the city, dropping on the ground

" Я твоя сестра kels." I tell her the same thing I greeted her but in her language ( I am your sister Kels)

"Вы хотели бы кукол?" ( Do you like dolls ?)

After maybe a hour she pulls me back inside she closes the door not letting me do it

" Хотел бы закрыть двери ?" I ask ( you like to close the door) I haven't gotten a answer to any of my questions but I still ask Madeline pulls me to are mum I look around the and see a cot for a baby I look at mum then back at the cot she pulls me over to it I hear mum take a deep breath

"this is your brother Zach," mum looks over at me Madeline pulls me over to him with her little hands " Это - младший брат Zach," I repeat what mum told us (this is are little brother Zach)

We leave having to go to sound check " Madeline Я хотел бы оставить для звук, Вы увидите меня в немного," I inform her (I have to go to sound check,you will see me in a little)

Sound check what awesome everything was right and it's already to go we talked to the boys for a bit I have my leather (Michael's) jacket on along with the gloves

"Michael Clifford is awesome,Ashton Irwin is a drummer,Luke is better like me, Calum is a bassist," I sing playing a few cords on my guitar

"Kels Madeline Ava will not sleep you seemed to get along with her," mum's soft tired voice I look at the time 10:20 I get up putting on a hoodie and my shoes grabbing my keys along with my glasses going to my car driving to David's house

I park walking in the house I take off my shoes as I walk in the house shutting the door behind me I go to Madeline showed me were she sleeps I walk in the room well was about it "Kels why didn't you talk to me that much?" Casey voice questions I look over at him,his body is hardly awake, his eyes are shut

"go to sleep Casey, I didn't talk to you that much because I wanted to see how Madeline is like," I tell him walking over to him "but I don't want to die yet," Casey's voice cracks like he is about to cry I go over to him pulling him into a hug "your not going to die," I tell him "yes I am, I know I am," Casey crys

"come here," he whispers tuning on the light in his room,I shut the door behind me sitting on his bed he grabs something from under his bed .....a box he sits down next to me opening the box he pulls out a blanket,monkey,a letter and a photo book

"The blanket Randy, it was in my hands when I found out I was getting adopted, the monkey my favorite animal and you always called me monkey,a letter from you to read after I pass and a photo book for the best memories," Casey explain each things "I'm going to bed now, good bye love you forever and always," Casey lays down "Forever and always," I repeat the last part I shut the light off and kiss him on the forehead walk out of the room

I put the stuff in my car walking back into the house I go to Madeline's room seeing her on the bed sitting up holding her blanket up almost over her eyes but not just close

" Madeline почему вы не спите вы нормально я обещаю ничего не будет вам больно внеся я ваша сестра я не давайте что-нибудь случилось с вами я обещание, и я всегда не обещает," I say in a light voice but enough for her to hear me ( Madeline why are you not asleep you normally i promise nothing will hurt you by making i your sister i do not let anything happen to you I promise, and I have always keep my promise)

She looks at me with fear in her eyes then down at herself I walk slowly over to her her hair is all over the place, I moves it out of her face giving her a hug kissing her forehead she smiles at me then lays down

I go back to the hotel to go to sleep