Make or break

Chapter 15

( Kels p.o.v.)

And on tour again but this time with Austin Mahone, Sabrina Carpenter, The Vamps and Shawn Mendes so very fun

Going to the airport with the band along with the other peoples

I have a black tank top,black skinny jeans, a grey jumper that says 'I do want I want I'm punk rock' and Michael Clifford varsity it says ' Clifford 95' on the back and topping off the outfit black converts high tops

I'm in a sad mood,very depressing, I just don't know why ? It's a mystery .....

Getting to the hotel room I fall face first on the bed

Not wanting to get up as Roxi pulls me out of bed

"You have to take a shower," Roxi tells me

A hour later I take a shower and the shower was 1 1/2 hours long

Putting on grey sweat pants and a hoodie we got to the arena in Miami

I got to the dressing room and go in the corner and cry just cry while Daisy,Roxi and Faith comforting me

He died he was to young,he had so much life left, my little brother Casey died because of me because I was selfish and took a career over my family,I'm so stupid why wasn't I their, I could have helped been a better sister, been in his life more something, I miss him so much and I didn't spend as much time as I should with him, why did I screw everything up, me, myself and I, and you know what I did it it's all my fault I did everything, he thought he was in the way from me to go forward with my career but he just mad it worse

It's should have been me, Da is gonna die next then who ? Why ? Why is this my life. I just want to die, kill me now please

We rehearse and go to sound check I drink water and watch everyone get to know each other I've changed because into my Michael Clifford outfit so that's a thing

Walking out on stage I have on a crop top and skinny jeans that hang on my hips my hair is up in a bow and I have bracelets on is the only thing different because it was not smart and I was not allowed to wear the Michael Clifford jacket or jumper

"So we have a new single that came out a few weeks ago." Daisy stands up looking at the crowd

"Who already knows who we are?" Faith asks

"Okay so this song is for Kels her brother passed away a few months ago but it's just hitting her now, so if anyone is going through the same thing or just hard times here you go." Faith tells them

I look at them then the crowd

"First time singing this song for a concert." I tell them

"The song is called Don't wait," Daisy tells them

(Me)
I know you've got a strong heart
It's written in the stars
Behind the castle walls
You've hid your light
But when you let the past go
Your story unfolds
Look out your window
Into the night
(Roxi)
The darkness can be such a lonely place on your own
I'll be your compass so you'll never feel alone
(Me)
Don't wait for the world to be ready
Who says you can't explore?
Who says you can't explore?
Don't wait for the world to be ready
Find what you're looking for
Find what you're looking for
( Daisy)
Are the monsters in your head now?
Stare them all down
If they come back around
You'll be alright
And when the journey gets tough
Just know that you're enough
You're like a warrior
Keep up the fight
(Roxi)
The darkness can be such a lonely place on your own
I'll be your compass so you'll never feel alone
(Me)
Don't wait for the world to be ready
Who says you can't explore?
Who says you can't explore?
Don't wait for the world to be ready
Find what you're looking for
Find what you're looking for
(Daisy and me)
Don't, don't, don't wait
Don't you wait, no
Don't, don't, don't wait
(Roxi)
Don't, don't, don't wait
Don't you wait, no
Don't, don't, don't wait
(Me)
Don't wait for the world to be ready
Who says you can't explore?
Don't wait for the world to be ready
Find what you're looking for
Find what you're looking for
(Roxi and Daisy)
Don't wait for the world to be ready
Who says you can't explore?
Who says you can't explore?
Don't wait for the world to be ready
Find what you're looking for
Find what you're looking for

Roxi and Daisy end the song for me because I started crying I take a deep breath then look at the crowd

This is were I'm supposed to be.