mixtapes // c.h.

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Calum loved me. He loved me. Hearing Calum say that he was in love with me made my heart pounce into my throat, in a good way. I don't really like the cliché  shit that always happens in books. Although sometimes you can't help, but be cliché.

I had convinced myself that Calum probably didn't actually love me because I mean I'm just plain old Zoe. There's nothing special about me. 

Calum is such an amazing guy that any girl would be lucky to have him love her. Fortunately he chose me to be that lucky girl. And I sure am glad that he did. 

At first when Calum told me that he was in love with me, I thought he was just saying it because he felt guilty. It was so hard to believe at first because I've never heard a girl confess her love for a boy, then he just acts nonchalant about it and doesn't confess his love for her within that same day, hours later. I always thought that the guy would grab the girl and kiss her passionately, confessing his love for her, then they'd have passionate sex to show how much they meant to each other. I guess that's not how it always go. 

It doesn't matter to me that Calum and I didn't share some cliché moment like that. I'm just grateful that he actually loves me. 

After Calum reassured me that he is indeed in love with me, I decided to be the little cliché shit. I threw my arms around his neck and connected our lips. 

Calum placed his hands at my bottom back, pulling me closer to him. He swiped his tongue across my bottom lip signaling for entrance to my mouth. Gladly, I approved and parted my lips. 

The kiss quickly got heated as Calum sat me on his lap, his large hands cupping my ass. 

I was only in a t-shirt and my underwear that read "Wednesday", although it wasn't Wednesday. Calum was practically naked with only his boxers. 

Since I had a better access to Calum's neck, I took the opportunity to suck his sweet soft skin. I slowly sucked along his neck. 

Calum was an impatient person, so why not tease him a bit? 

His cold fingers grazed along my waist, squeezing every now and then. I could feel Calum getting more anxious, so finally he locked our lips back together. 

After furiously kissing and teasing each other Calum unlocked our lips. He started to life my shirt up, but before even getting it halfway up, he looked at me. "Can I?" 

I nodded my head yes, but Calum was still hesitant. 

"Calum, I want you. I know that you love me and you know that I love you. I trust you." I assured him. 

Calum looked deeply into my eyes then quickly broke his gaze away, "Have you ever..like are you..have you ever done it before?" He questioned. 

I admit I was close to giving myself away to this one guy, but I didn't even love him. He had convinced me that he loved me and cherished me, but I never felt the same. I just couldn't convince myself that I was in love with him. After I refused him, we of course got into a fight and he threw some things around. Once he was finished throwing and punching things, he left. That was the last I saw of him. 

"No, but I trust you. I'm sure I want it to be you who I can experience this with." I said, grabbing Calum's face in my hands,"I've never been so sure of anything else, Calum. I love you." With that I placed a chaste kiss on his lips. 

"I love you, Zoe."