Teenage horror story ➵A.I

Part 26-I need you alive

hey guys. before this chapter starts, i just wanted to thank all of the wonderful people sending encouraging messages to me. its people like you that make these last few months bearable. love you guys.

We sat there in bitter silence, the only sounds the slight whisper of Ashton crying and the ringing in my head. Luke sat on one side of him holding his hand and I sat on the other with ashton in my arms, running my fingers through his hair in an attempt to calm him down. I looked up to Luke, his face solid with hurt and his teeth dragging over his lip ring as he fought against his tears. My heart broke at the sight of him like this, he seemed so happy and strong, but I guess fake smiles are something I know too well to know that they can hide a lot.

Luke and I walked out of the house after Ashton had fallen asleep, it was 2 in the morning when we left. We closed the door softly and walked out on to the seemingly colder pavement. I looked at Luke and he nodded, his eyes reading a million diffrent things but mostly "now you know". My head spun and my heart raced as I slowly started to let myself come undone. I let the tears out and bowed my head down. My tears hit the cold road as I continued to let it out. "What am I going to do?" I started. "I need to be strong for him but I have never been strong a day in my life." Luke walked towards me and wrapped his arms around my shaking body. "Your the strongest person I've met. You'll be okay Liv." He whispered as I cried into his shoulder. "I don't know about that anymore." I chocked. "Then ill be sure about it, okay? He has you know, he will be okay." He said, putting his hand on my cheeks so I would look up at him. "Okay?" He said to me, his big smile making his lip ring move around. "What is this shit fault in our stars." I giggled through tears. "Theres the Olivia I know." He smiled, putting his arm around me. "Now lets get you home." We started walking against the warm, night air, our feet clicking on the pavment. We said nothing but we heard one another's load thoughts and troubled minds. Luke is an amazing friend, and he knows just how to pick me up and he also knows when I am a mess. Its a blessing and a curse. I guess tonight its a little bit of both.

I slowed us down when we reached the coffee shop, which is where I originally bumped into him this afternoon. I back away from him and he looked at me. "What? Your house is still a few blocks away." He said. "I-I don't live there anymore." I said quietly. Luke sighed and looked to me. "I thought you would never tell me." He said. I looked up to him in shock but my head kinda knew he knew. "Why arnt you living with your parents anymore?" He asked me softy. "Its a long story.." I started. We ended up going to the café that he worked at and talked over coffee. I must admit I felt so much better after someone knew. I felt as if my body had been stuffed with boulders and they had just all fallen out. I felt like I could breath again but there was still fear in the back of my head. It wasn't me I was worried about anymore.

The next day of school was the strangest day I have had in my life. Everyone was so distant, Dana and Calum, Ashton was no where to be seen, and Michael and Jessica ditched today. Luke, Scar, Calum and I were the only people around, and I didn't like the feeling in my stomach. "I don't like this." Calum said as we walked out the school. "I was thinking the same thing." I whispered. "Whats going on?" Scarlett said. We were all silent, no one really knew what to say.

|Ashton's pov|
Im so tierd. I can hardly feel my feet against the ground as I throw myself from class to class, mindlessly and quietly. I have been hiding from everyone today, I can even look at my own reflection with out wanting to cry so how was I suppose to face the people I love without falling apart? Thankfully, the school day ended and I got out as soon as I could. My car broke down this morning, so I jumped on my bike and started to head home. I usually love biking around in the day, the beauty of Sidney makes my heart flutter, but not today. I feel nothing, no smile itching across my face, no blush peppering across my skin from thinking of Olivia, nothing but ache in my heart. I don't know why its hurting me now more then ever, but all I can do is think about my mother and how her lose has fucked everything. And it was my fault.

I got home and unlocked my door, I noticed my dads car was still gone so I knew he was working. I walked up the stairs, no beating in my heart just this feeling in my head. I walked into my dads bathroom and opened the drawer, looking for them. I don't really know what in doing, but I know what I want. Without thinking, I spotted and took my dads anti-depressants and emotionlessly took them to the window. I climbed out and onto the roof, my lip quivering.

I sat there for a while, silent tears falling down my cheeks. I knew what I wanted to do now. No images of anyone but my failure popped into my head when my shaking hands took out the pills from my sweat pant's pocket. My eyes glazed over and I poured way to much pills into my hand, I looked down at them. I lifted my hand closer to my face, but just before I was going to swallow, I felt a hand on my back. I turned slowly to see a crying Olivia.

"Please dont."