I Couldn't have told you r5 fanfic

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Ross p.o.v

I wish they didn't come.....I don't want them here clearly as day you could see they don't listen to me. I told them not to look at me as a brother, but another stranger they'd see everyday. I just shook my head now i have to tell them the reason i left. No not a lie because obviously they could read me like a book. They instantly know when i'm lying.

"Ross quit stalling just tell them what happen or i will!" Courtney said looking at me with pleading eyes. I just sighed and shook my head again. They looked at me curious to say the least and i just don't think i'm ready to tell.

"Ross dude you can tell us anything we promise we'll listen." Riker said calmly and i instantly glared at him. That's not true.

"Like how you listened to me when i nedded you!" I snapped and everyone gaped at me. The girls shook their heads and pointed to my brothers. Indicating me to talk to them.

"Fine...fine." I said screaming at first then quieted down in a more firm softer tone." I just need to know is rydellington really real or just for publicity." I said in a even more quieter tone hopping they made them get together for the band wise. It would really crush me if it was for real.

"They've been secretly dating for about three years ross, but I don't understand why would that be apart of the situation?" Ryland said looking at me ij confusion my whole face turned from hopeful to furious they've been secretly dating for years behind my back, yet she let him lead me on to loving him and he made me think he loved me. I'm......hurt.

"It has a lot to do with this situation!" Laura snapped she was mad for what happen to me and she became even moread when she saw the magazines. She helped me through when i cried every night. Sometimes i still do.

"Ok i'll start from the beginning." I said breaking the silence they all looked at me with the curious expressionsa again. "Did you guys know that I was gay?" I said calmly looking for their disgusted reaction of me, but they just smiled shaking their heads.

"Is that why you left....because we don't have a problem against you being gay!" Riker said with a hopeful glint in his eyes and i just shook my head a no and his smile droppes.

"I was dating ratliff." I said and they all except laura and Courtney looked at me wide eyed. They looked confused as well. They didn't expect that.

"Ratliff isn't gay he's living proof dude." Rocy exasperatedly explained glaring at me a....bit.

"If you fucking listen then maybe then you'll get a damn story." I said causing all of them to shut up. I smirked at my own power i use over them.

"Anyways like i was saying ratliff and I was dating for almost two in a half years... our parents and rydel were the only one who knew actually she was mad at us at first, but she quickly got over it accepting us. Or so I thought. Remember when ryland was all happy that we got a world tour? Well that night chamged everything. We had sex he took my virginity and my heart. Stepped on it and broke it. The next few weeks i started feeling sleepy i had a lot of headaches and also i been trowing up had food cravings as well. I went to the doctor wondering why the hell i've been feeling this way. I took a test anf it came out positive i was in denial but i'm living proff right now. You want to know what it was. I was freaking pregnant. Gosh i'm so stupid. I had that food craving ya know for funnel cake and cheese. You guys said it was disgusting Ellington stayed behind and just looked....no more like glared at me. I was eating slowly then he said that's disgusting you're disgusting. I jad maybe cried the whole night because you guys made me feel..." I was cut off by riker's agitated tone. Which called me to glare harshly.

"We get we made you feel like shit."

" And as a family you shouldn't pose to feelike that let me finish the damn story." I snapped at him glaring a bit more." No i don't want to hear more of this bull." Riker said mad like and i just chuckled harshly shaking my head looking at him.

"Yeah because you never listen here let me tell you the short version...you guys were annoued with me i felt like i was bringing down you guys success when i got pregnant i would have brung the fame down anyways if i tild people i was gay, but no you guys worked to hard to get where we were i left you guys didn't deserve that. Then i was going to come back as guilty as i felt i knew you guys were depressed i just felt it. I know damn well i wasn't the one who should be feeling guilt you guys should. I was so close to calling to actually feel happy again then I seen it. They were fucking dating secretly for three damn years he lead me on he made me think he loved me me he never did i actually truly felt the opposite. I cried...cried hard each and every night when i shouldn't.i couodn't be stressed while being pregnant that's i seriously was in the hospital for a month because of it. I had to learn it out of a freaking magazine I was being played and i am still here feeling guilty. God damn it i had twins with fucking ratliff a guy i thought he loved me turns out he's fucking my sister....no she's not even my sister she's just rydel."

I took the vase a threw it a across the room. Everyone went silent I am so glad they too tke girls upstairs. They would hate me for this.

"Ross I-" i cut riker off with a sift glare

"Leave it you wouldn't have listend anyways you would have took their side anyways you guys always do." I yelled at them tears running down my face. "Well when is the time you'll actually care about me my problems; because damn i've done so much for you guys." I said in a softer ton now that my face was red with stains on tears.

"We do care about you ross." Ryland said softly looking down and i just scoffed at them laughing a bit.

"So when.....when will you show, and if.you did then why didn't i see it." I looked at them they were just quit i shook my head a with that i marched upstairs.