I don't think I've been so down for someone. I don't think I've loved this much in years. I mean, look at me. I'm sappy as hell and I can barely stand still in front of her without my knees becoming weak and unstable. I can't look at her without smiling, I can't stay mad at her, I can't stop craving her presence, I can't stop wanting her in my arms, I can't stop looking at the pictures of her on my phone, I can't stop talking to her for a day, nor can I stop my thoughts about her from fluttering in my head. I feel like she's making me go insane but, she's keeping me sane. Does that even make sense??
At times, I know that dating her is so bad (because our families are bloody religious). Why is it wrong? Why is same-sex relationships/marriage so wrong to religion? Honestly, I'm tired of hiding this shit to my mom. I'm tired of it because I know my mom would've been so proud of me for bring such an amazing girl like her home to meet the family. I wish same-sex relationships weren't a problem to religion. I wish everyone was accepted for being different. I wish that kids are now brought up to know that being gay is okay and that everyone loves you no matter what (even if you're brought up religious). I wish that my girlfriend and I could come out of hiding from our parents.
She's a funny gal with a beautiful personality, million dollar smile and heart of gold. Who wouldn't love her? I mean, yeah. She has flaws but, her personality shines right through it. She has a divine and adventurous personality (and she's also a cutie so thats a bonus, am i rite??). I love her through all of it. I love her when she's angry, when she's sad, when she's stubborn as hell, and even more when she's sick. Thick and thin, through it all, I'm all in.
I don't think anyone deserves her. She's too good to be anyone's significant other. She doesn't really need anyone to "tie her down." I admit that, I've done a lot of horrible things in life. That's why I'm so appreciative that I've gotten the chance to love her unconditionally. She doesn't give these chances to just anyone. I'm glad to be her first, I plan to make this last as well. I don't want to lose her. To be honest, she's one of the best things that has ever happened to me. No one deserves Leanmarie but i believe I come close enough.
