Mama's Boy

12 (New Added Chapter)

Satan

"What time is it, Light?" Angel says, her voice raspy as she had just woken up. It's been a couple weeks since going to the amusement park and after school today, Angel was tired so she took a very long nap. I stayed up doing school work while she slept.

I showed her the time on my phone which made her put her head in her pillow, groaning. Afterwards, she sat up to be on the same level as me. "I don't know why I was so tired today."

"I mean, you didn't sleep last night," I signed. Angel was finishing a project for her English class that she had procrastinated. She nods her head before pecking me on the lips.

"I'm going to go downstairs to get water, do you want anything?" I shake my head and kiss her again, she giggles then gets out of the bed, walking away.

Letting my guard down feels like stepping outside for the first time after protecting myself and hiding behind these walls I've built. I didn't want to let anyone in, I didn't want to expose myself to the pain I might feel.

It was hard at first, my thoughts raced and my instincts wanted me to pull back before she saw too much, but with Angel, she was patient and waited for me. I know what it feels like now, to choose to stay and open myself up to her, and vulnerability became softer, almost warm.

I trust her, I trust her to hold the pieces of me I swear nobody would've touched, trusting she wouldn't break me. I find safety in her voice as she calms me from the storm in my head. Her hands give me warmth as she holds me in my time of need.

And her eyes... Although they seem so small, they tell me everything I need. She gives me a look that makes me feel so seen, that even though I'm letting her in, I know she won't judge. She's here with me and I know she won't go.

"When are you gonna be done, I wanna cuddle," Angel pouts and I'm pretty much done so I put my stuff on the side and shift so I'm laying on the bed. Angel cuddles close, resting her head on my chest and her hand on my stomach. I've let my guard down more with her and I'm glad.

"Thank you for being the person I find safety in," I sign to her which causes her to smile and kiss me three times, one getting longer than the other.

"I'm glad you gave me the chance to be that person," she smiles, then lays her head on my chest. She doesn't fall asleep again, instead she plays a show to watch until dinner time.

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Angel sits across from me, doing school work after dinner. I don't have any work to do so I just sit in silence as she works. She says me sitting here helps her focus, I don't know why but I'll do anything she wants me to do as long as it doesn't hurt me.

"Hey S, do you have any idea how to do this? Angel says you take AP classes so you're like hella smart," Angel's sister says. I took a look at the paper which shows me a chemistry worksheet.

I nod my head, placing the paper down and grabbing a pen, showing her where she messed up and fixing it on another piece of paper. I also write it step by step so she can continue to work on it alone. "Thank you so much. Chemistry is kicking my ass and my teacher isn't making it easier."

"No problem," I sign, handing back her papers. I turn to look at Angel, who frowns looking at her work also not getting it. I tap the desk to get her attention and she looks up facing me. Her frown suddenly fades and she smiles. "Everything okay?"

"I'm struggling, I hate the stupid worksheets," she says, waving around a piece of paper. I stick my hand out for it and look up at her after seeing that it's Government work. Angel struggles with work but I know she's smart and I know she understands this. She is just one of those people that if doesn't interest her, she won't put an effort in learning it, but the truth is people have to learn things they don't like or they'll become sheltered and close-minded.