I Would {A Harry Styles and Niall Horan Fan-Fic} (Completed!)

Chapter 16

The next time I saw Niall, it was exactly a month and a half before the boys’ next world tour. Niall had claimed to be busy, and the news backed this up. Apparently he’d been making public appearances set up by their manager, though I wasn’t sure why he would be doing this without the others.

I asked Niall why their manager would do this.

Niall shrugged as he took off his coat. Since our romantic night a month and half ago, we hadn’t really had sex yet. I had a feeling it had something to do with me seeing Harry, and Niall being awkward.

“So,” I said, smiling as best I could. “How have you been? I know you’ve been busy, but how have you been feeling?”

Niall shrugged. He looked sad, sort of downcast. I felt a sense of panic overtake me as he leaned away from me and looked at his hands.

“I’ve been good. My parents might be visiting soon, so maybe you can come and see them when they’re here,” I continued.

Niall shrugged again, still looking at his hands. This sent me into full-on panic mode.

“Are you okay?” I asked, hearing the panic in my voice. I tried to compose myself, but it I could feel the cold sweat enveloping me, and the fear deaden my senses.

Niall looked up, and I could tell by his face that he wasn’t going to say, “Fine.”

“Annalise,” he said, his eyebrows slanting downwards. “Do you still love me?”

I tried not to let the fear take over me. Did he suspect that I was cheating on him? I took a deep breath before continuing.

“I still love you,” I said, not sure if I believed it or not. “Why would you ask that?”

Niall looked away and sighed. We were in my flat, sitting down on my couch. He had to leave soon, and he was just stopping by, but I had had a feeling he was coming to tell me something important.

“I feel like I disappoint you so much,” he said, avoiding my gaze. “You try so hard…and sometimes I feel like I’m not ready for a relationship…I feel….I feel like we should break up.” Niall looked abruptly then, his blue eyes filled with fear. I could tell he hadn’t meant to say that.

“Niall,” I said, feeling an immense love for him, and the fear that he was leaving me. “You may disappoint me, but isn’t a relationship a compromise?” I heard Adrian’s advice echo through my head as said this, but I pushed it away. “I respect that you need your space, and you try to make up for it. It’s as simple as that.”

Niall smiled a little, but he still seemed upset.

“Niall,” I said, reaching over, stroking his shoulder. “All relationships go through a rough patch. You and I are just a little strained right now. But remember; I’m always here for you, no matter what.” I bit back the irony of that statement, wincing just a little.

Niall didn’t notice. He smiled and said, “Thank you…Lisa.”

I stopped. Had he just called me Lisa? It was a first that I thought would never happen.

“I love you Niall,” I said. “I love you.”

“I love you too,” he said, leaning in, kissing me on the cheek. He got up, and smiled.

“I have to run now, but I’ll be back. I love you.”

“Love you too,” I whispered as he let himself out. I smiled and sighed. Then I realized what had just happened.

I was going in circles with this. I felt two kinds of loves when it came to Harry and Niall. With Niall, it was comfortable. His love felt like a soft blanket on a cold winter’s night. It was safe, predictable, and not at all risky.

Harry’s love was different. Harry took love to a whole new level. He was soft one moment, rough the next, yet his love felt like diving into a sea of unknown. I wasn’t sure what lay beneath the surface, or what was to come, but frankly, I didn’t care.

This had to end. I had to end one of the relationships. Yet, I still felt that I needed time to decide.

“The world tour,” I said out loud. I would decide right before the world tour. Then, I wouldn’t have to see one of them constantly while I was with the other. If I chose Niall, Niall would never know of my secret relationship with Harry. Harry would just have to deal. If I chose Harry…I would wait until after the world tour to announce to the world that we were a couple. Niall would be over me by then, right?

Until then, I had time to weigh my options, see if I could make sure no one got hurt, and hope for the best. I knew only two people could help me with this. Liam….

“And Adrian,” I groaned.