Opposites

48

Moe

"Where are you going?" I asked Billie as she was doing her makeup in the mirror.

"Out"

"Dressed like that?"

"Since when did you have a problem with the way I dressed?"

"I don't like it"

"You don't like anything Moe"

"Why are you being a bitch?"

"You have a problem with what I'm wearing yet I'm the bitch?"

"Billie on the real note let's talk"

"You're so bipolar"

"No fighting just fucking conversation, I don't want you to go anywhere I just want you to stay here with me, please"

"Why Moe? After the way you've been treating me it's been hard to be around you"

"I'm sorry, I keep fucking up and I know that, but I love you B, I love you so fucking much, you know that I'd do absolutely anything for you"

"I know Moe, but you have a hard way of showing affection towards me lately, our life isn't normal and I get that and we chose this life, but we chose it because we loved each other and we were going to go through it together"

"I understand"

"Do you?"

"I do B, I love you"

"Then show it"

"C'mere"

She walked over to me and sat on my lap. She wrapped her arms around my neck and we shared a kiss.

That kiss led to something more, let's just say she didn't go out that night cause I kept her occupied, but we made love.

I woke up in the middle of the night in a fright like I had just dreamt about a nightmare, but really I was only dreaming about what happened inside my office. My body was drenched in sweat and I was breathing heavy.

I need to lay off the drugs, otherwise I'd end up in more situations like this, I can't help to wonder if maybe I was alone and just dreaming. I'm starting to feel like I can't tell the difference between reality and my delusions.

If I was a normal person I'd get a therapist.

I looked over at Billie peacefully asleep next to me, at least I know that was real, suddenly it was the only thing I cared about, my girlfriend and me in our bed together in our house.

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"Mommy mama," Janay ran to me with a smile and I scooped her up in my arms.

"Hey beautiful you're awake,"

"I have a surprise for you"

"Can I see it?"

"Nooo not yet"

"Why not?"