(Katherine's POV)
Lisa slowly walks out in tears, looking extremely emotionally drained.
I walk over and pull her into a tight hug, hoping maybe if I hold her tightly enough, all her broken pieces will come back together.
"It's gonna be ok" I whisper, though I'm honestly not sure if I'm trying her, or myself...but what else can you say in a moment like this?
We break apart and I manage a soft smile before I walk into Lauren's room.
My eyes land on her in her bed for the first time and immediately my knees buckle from underneath me.
I stay on the floor for a minute, my heart pounding wildly in my chest, as I try to catch my breath. I feel like I've just been hit by a train.
When I finally pull myself together, I shakily stand up and walk over beside her.
I brush a few strands out of her face.
"Laurie" I whisper, letting the name roll off my tongue slowly. I used to call her that all the time, it was my special nickname for her, that only I was allowed to call her.
...and this first time that names slipped past my lips in months.
"Laurie...I'm the worst sister ever. I ignored you even though you were hurting, I turned you away when you cried out for help...I didn't even listen when you tried to tell your side of the story, and to find out it was all a lie...I should've known. You're the kindest, sweetest girl on the planet. I was a complete idiot for believing even for a moment that you would do and say all those mean things. I don't blame you if you wake up and want nothing to do with me, that's what I would want. I know you're probably thinking "you only care about me because I almost died"...but Laurie, I've always cared...I was just an idiot and didn't show you that. I want to beg for your forgiveness...but I won't, I don't deserve it. I don't deserve a sister as kind and amazing and selfless as you. I'm so so sorry Laurie...I love you so much"
I barely choke out my last word before I'm overwhelmed by tears. I clutch her hand tightly, wanting so desperately to feel her hold it back...but because of me, she won't...for who knows how long.
"I love you Lauren, I love you so much. We all love you, you are so loved, I will make sure you never doubt it, ever again"
I sigh deeply, wiping my eyes. Lauren and I used to be really close, mind you I wasn't as close to her as she was to Dani and Lisa but...we did everything together.
She reached out to me, at one point, three days before this all happened. She told me how depressed she was, how hopeless she felt, how much she missed me, and everyone else.
And you know what I did?
I told her to go away, I told her get out and deal with it on her own...what if that was the last straw her...
What if I hadn't yelled at her like that..
Could I have saved her?
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A/N: Kath :O :O
Hello kids!!!!!
I had a pretty awesome birthday, went out to dinner and the mall with my best friend :D
The only thing I bought was hand sanitizer lol, we just walked around talking the whole time.
Anywaysssss, here is a little update for you guys for being so awesome ;)
Love y'all!
- Annie :)
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