What Happened to Us?

Chapter Twenty

(Christina's POV)

I hold ice close to my throbbing cheek, but it's not enough.

All of me just hurts.

I feel so tired...physically and emotionally.

And not to mention, extremely guilty.

I just beat up my sisters...I put my hands on them.

All because I couldn't control my stupid temper.

It's gotten so outta hand lately, the smallest things send me into a rage.

Today something in me just snapped..

There I was, making breakfast with Lisa, when she accidentally knocked a glass over.

And then suddenly I was angry.

Suddenly I was screaming at her, telling her it was her fault that Lauren is in a coma.

And then suddenly I was screaming at Katherine, and blaming her.

And suddenly...we were all beating the living daylights out of each other.

I don't know where Dani was during all that...but it's good that she wasn't in the room.

God knows what I would've done to her.

So now here I am, laying in bed with a heavy heart, a guilted mind, and more bruises and cuts than I can count.

Katherine then walks into the room, with a pained expression, her face a mixture of ugly blues, purples and blacks...

"Katherine" I mumble. My bottom lip is swollen and puffy, not making it any easier to speak.

She shakes her head.

"Chris don't bother. It's fine" she says, her tone impassive.

But I know her better.

She's taking every word I said to heart, and it's destroying her.

"No, no it's not. Please Kath I didn't mean any of it. I was angry" I say.

"You're always angry" she deadpans.

And I don't have a response for that...because it's 100% true.

Katherine's changed. She's always been the most emotional out of all of us.

But lately, it's like she's just completely shut down.

She barely speaks, barely cries, she's always locked away in some location I can't name.

She's been corrupted by guilt.

But so have I.

My eyes drift down and for a fraction of a second, I swear I see something on her wrist.

But her sleeve falls before I can really catch it.

For a moment, I fear the absolute worse. But taking a better look at her, I realize how much I roughed her up.

Of course she would have marks on her wrist.

I sigh, and turn away from her. And...not surprisingly.

I'm angry.

But this time, I'm angry at my parents.

Ever since Lauren's been in her coma, they've locked themselves away in their room.

Distracting themselves with paperwork, anything to get their mind of Lauren.

They rarely come out, only for occasional meals.

Which I now have to make.

They haven't even noticed the fact that we all just got into a giant fight...

I've had to grow up overnight to take care of my siblings because our own parents can't bring themselves to.

But I am not in any way, shape or form, well enough to take care of them.

I can barely take care of myself.

And suddenly the responsibility of four other lives have been placed in my broken hands.

And I just beat the living crap out of two of them...

They are all broken.

Katherine is completely torn and twisted by guilt.

Lisa is in a state of constant anxiety.

I can barely even look at Dani.

And poor Amy is right in the middle of it all.

How the hell am I supposed to take care of them!!

How am I supposed to take care of me.

I then start to cry, because for once in my life, I am not fit to do the one thing I was born to do.

Be a leader.

I am not to fit to be a leader, forget be a mother to my siblings who, just like me, can't figure out how to take care of themselves.

I start to cry even harder.

Never in my life have I felt this hopeless...

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A/N: poor Christina :( the pressures really getting to her.

So what do y'all think is gonna
happen next?

Hopefully lauren will wake up soon :/:/:/

Now I got a giant pile of homework to tackle...

HOPE YOU ALL HAVE BEEN HAVING A FANTASTIC WEEKEND KIDS!!

Love y'all!

- Annie :)