All That I Want // Harry Styles Imagine

Fourteen

Harry's POV

I realize I'd left my gift for Tianni in the empty tree trunk a few feet away from the Treehouse, so I give her the 'My mum's calling' excuse to retrieve the necklace I had bought for her.

As I approached the tree, I hear a girl's heartbreaking sobs not too far away. When Y/n's tan jacket, and maroon scarf come to view, my mind blurs.

I stared at her for a moment, the way she was leaned against a tree, with her knees tucked in her chest, most likely in effort to stay warm.

"Y/n?" I walk towards her, uneasiness churning in the pit of my stomach. When she hears me call out, she buries her face in her hands, and I scramble to her side.

"Y/n.." I tug at her arm, which is way more resistant than I presumed it would be.

She sobs, her body shaking violently. I don't understand what exactly is happening. Did she receive bad news from someone? Why was she crying?
Y/n was just happy and smiling nearly seconds ago, in the treehouse with Tianni and I.

"What's wrong, Y/n? You're worrying me!" I plop down beside her, growing irritated since she hasn't uncovered her face.

I've never, in all my life, seen her cry this hard. Y/n looks so vulnerable, as her body trembled uncontrollably.
My voice shakes involuntarily, the sound of her cries, calling out to my poor heart; pounding at its door.

"Y/n.. What's wrong?" I ask again, the desire to know what she was crying over stronger than ever. Y/n doesn't stop crying, but she manages to choke out two words, overtaken with lies.
"Nothing's wrong."

I reach out to touch her, but I find myself dropping my hand.

"Y/n, I know you better than that." I push, not daring to tread lighter like I should be.

A strangled noise falls from her lips, "It's absolutely nothing!" She screams, leaving me dumbfounded to wonder why she's screaming at me.

How could Y/n be crying this hard without a reason?

Before I could pry any longer, she bursts out, feeling as if she were screaming it for the world to hear and know.

"You know what's wrong? I've been in love with you for Six years now, Harry! I'm crying because I know you don't feel the same for me. But somehow, I let myself perceive that maybe you would fall for me too." Y/n explains in one breath, and I grow frigid.

She grips at her chest, "It's so naive of me, but I couldn't help myself. There you always were, being everything I wanted, without you even trying!" Y/n flails her arms in the air, as more tears streak down her face.

I watch completely bewildered, as she unravels herself in front of me.

"I don't expect you to understand, but this is going to be hard. So hard." Y/n shakes her head, and once again I'm lost.

"What's going to be hard?" I ask, and her bloodshot eyes bore into mine.

"Moving on." She whispers defeatedly.
"I'm just done..." An exasperated sigh meets the chilled air, "Loving someone, who will never love me the same way." Hot air puffs from her mouth, and I don't say anything.

Evidence of realization is striking in her eyes, "But all I ever wanted for you, was to see you happy. Truly, genuinely, happy." Y/n tries to give me a small smile but fails when her lips quiver.
"All I wanted was for you to find her. The right girl. And you have." A choked whimper is the only sound heard, and it's from Y/n.
"You found such a diamond. Tianni is such a beautiful and wonderful girl." She wipes her tears, "I'm happy for you."

Y/n certainly didn't look happy. Y/n walks off without another word spoken.
She leaves me once again in bewilderment.

That's when it hits me though.

I was such a jerk to her, telling her how we could never date, or how I would never date her. When all she fucking wanted was for me to be happy, I made her miserable for a year and a half, refusing to speak to her after she told me the feelings she had for me.

Y/n was in love with me, and I didn't care.

Fuck.
It hit me. Hard.

She's the one.
Y/n is. All this time, I was looking everywhere, and she was right in front of my own fucking eyes, but I was too busy being a fucking self centered, egotistical, asshole to even notice.

Author's Note
reaaalllly lil shit ): now you notice ): dumb frog