Just your common love story

Chapter 15

I'm awaken from my nap and my mom is crying.

"What's going on?" I ask.

No one answers me and it worries me, every single scenario goes through my head all at once.. Then I remember Josh.

"You're kidding? No, he's fine. He's alright?! Tell me he's alright." I start to yell.

"I'm sorry, we don't think he's going to make it through the night. He's not breathing on his own. We have him hooked up to the oxygen machine but he can't live on that forever." The doctor said.

I try to talk but nothing comes out but sobs.

My mom comes and sits by my side and holds my hand.

"I'm so sorry Liz. They'll do everything they can." She says.

"Can I see him?" I say.

The doctor nods.

They hook me up to the mobile machine and I walk down to Josh's room.

The sight of him makes me sick to my stomach. He looks worse today than he did yesterday. His face looks like his been dead for days. His skin is so dry. He has bruises around his eyes, on his cheeks, his nose is swollen. He has 3 or 4 knots on his head. His hands are so scabbed up.

"...Josh.. I.. I'm so sorry." I say and start crying.

I look at him and slightly touch the sides of his face. I lean down and kiss his forehead. He's so cold.

"Josh, you have to pull through. Promise me you will? I don't want to live without you. I love you." I say.

I sit there in silence for 2 minutes, I lay my head on his arm.

"Words can't even begin to tell you how I feel. I wish you could just read my mind. I love you Josh!" I say.

The doctor comes into his room.

"You need to leave." He says.

"I'm not going anywhere."

"I'm not asking you I'm telling you. If you want us to save your boyfriend, you have to leave." He says.

I nod and walk back to my room.

"How's he doing?" My mom asks.

I shake my head and tears start falling.

My mom wraps her arms around me and tells me everything is going to be okay.

"It's not mom! I love him. I'm about to lose the only guy I've ever loved and it's all my fault." My sadness quickly turns into anger. My face reddens and I run towards Ashley!

"Liz, I'm sorry. I am. Please stop." She says.

"This is your fault. I hate you Ash, I wish you were dead!" I yell and grab ahold of her arm.

"Elizabeth, that's enough." My mother yells at me.

"It's her fault though. All my pain is caused because of her. I hate all of you. I might as well kill myself, maybe then you'll realize how important I AM." I start to run off but I bump into the doctor. His face looks as if he'd seen a ghost.

"Josh.." I say. I fall down to my knees and burst into tears. "Ashley, I'm so sorry. I didn't mean what I said.

"It's okay Liz, I'm not mad. I love you." She says and comes and helps me off the ground.

"Alright, Doctor, tell us what the news is." My mom says and puts her hands on mine and Ashley's shoulder.

"Patient Josh is doing a lot better. He's progressing but he's still not awake. Sooner or later we'll have to quit it." He says and leaves the room.

"Mom, you can't let them quit. I'll be so upset without him. I love him. Please do something." I'm crying now and I don't know what to do.

One of the nurses comes in and asks to speak to my mother. She walks out of the room.

We sit in silence, me and Ashley. My mom walks back in with a sad face.

"Mom?" I say

"It's Josh, he needs a heart transplant but they don't have any donors. I'm so sorry Liz, there's nothing I can do." She says.

"Give him mine. Let him have my heart. Please. I'd rather him live and me die then me live without him. Get me a doctor tell them I'm donating my heart." I say.

"You can't do that.. I need you Liz. Your mom needs you. Josh couldn't bare the fact if you were gone. You're his world. Please stay.. For your mom. For Josh. For me..." Ashely says.

I shake my head.

"You need some rest. Lie down." My mom tells me.

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I wake up from my nap.

"Can I see Josh?" I ask one of the nurses.

"He's in surgery right now." She says.

"Surgery? Does this mean he got a heart donor?" I ask getting all excited.

"Yes, but calm down Mrs. King, I should probably tell you who the donor was." The nurse says.

I look around the room in fear. My mom is gone... Did she? No? This can't be.

I look up at the nurse tears filling my eyes.

"Your mom gave her heart to Josh so that you'd be happy." She says.

That's why she wanted me to nap. So I couldn't change her mind. I break down into tears. I shove my face in my pillow I scream to the top of my lungs. Every part of me has now died inside. How am I supposed to live without my mom. First I lost my dad when I was 4 and now my mom. I'm 17 years old... I'm not ready to live without her. It's not fair.

"Liz, I'm sorry." Ashley said.

I shake my head and lie down. I've never been in so much pain. It's not even a physical pain. It's emotionally painful. I can't... I need her.

"Here, she told me to give you this!" Ashley says and hands me a note.

*the note reads*
Dear Elizabeth,
         You know I love you. Your happiness means more to me than ever. I've donated my heart to Josh. For you. I love you both. I know you'll do great in life. You'll still have the house, all my money, and the money I've set aside for you. Don't worry. I know you'll be very successful just like your dad. I love you, Liz.

                                          Love always,
                                                          Mom

So, that's it? I don't have my dad. I don't have my mom. It's just me. Me and my best friend.. And Josh.