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[3:Letters]

Seasons passed and surprisingly the servant that watched over me did not disappear like all the others. I had taken to occuping myself with books and writing letters to Aldwin, only leaving my room to check if I had received any letters. On occasion I would get letters from Aldwin, and in turn the letters I had left in the chest would be taken to him. I hid these letters that brought me so much joy, keeping them safe, and sometimes I would read them again and again for hours. These letters were proof that he cared and would one day return and bring me with him.

In his letters he wrote of his days and would ask about how I was doing, sometimes he even wrote poems and send flower hair pins. I would always reply and tell him of the books I read and the occasional adventures I went on, attaching paintings to help illustrate. I didn't go out as much as before because there was always this creeping feeling of dread when I remembered I was all alone and had no way to defend myself.

Aldwin was a gifted swordsman, a prodigy even. He was someone I could rely on no matter what. I wasn't as strong or courageous as him. My body had always been rather weak, but my senses and reflexes were fast and sharp. I was a lot faster and more agile than him too. We had raced to the woods and back a few times and I loved the feeling of being weightless, I could be as free as the wind.

Most of my days were rather lack lustre, slowly blurring in my mind.
On occasion I would see the servant leave for weeks at a time which is something that seemed rather normal to me. Until one day on a crisp winter evening the servant brought me a letter with a familiar wax seal, one that I had seen in many books...
"It is from your father."
"My father? Why would he send me a letter now without making any contact with me for practically all my life? It would have been more considerate if he had actually come in person to speak to me!" I was enraged. After so many years of not knowing anything of my blood relatives my father decides he would write me a letter? Would he not like to see me in person? Why was I even living out here anyway!?
"There are important matters he would like to discuss, but he does not have the time nor the leisure to meet you in person." The servant stated in a calm manner. Turning back to my desk I opened the envelope and took out the letter.

' Dear Rena

I have heard that you've gotten better. I am glad to say that I would like to formally invite you to live in the palace with us. We would like to reconcile with you about the way we have treated you and give a proper explanation.

Sincerely, your father'

My hands shook as read the page, whether from shock or anger it didn't matter, I was frozen in place. The servant stood glancing over my shoulder.
"Your father is expecting you to write back."
At that moment I bolted up from my seat, startling the servant. "Tell him I refuse." I stated in a cold tone, grabbing my coat I stalked out of the cottage.

I climbed the branches of the willow, clambering into a makeshift nest I had built for myself. I hate it, I hate it, I hate it! Just the way the letter was written, made my stomach turn, it was as if I was a long forgotten toy that they just suddenly wanted back after tossing it away. I promised that I would wait for Aldwin to come back for me... I don't want to leave the place that we loved so much.

I pulled out the very first hair pin that Aldwin had given to me, not caring if my long hair became tangled and dirty as it fell from its place. I held it to my chest, hugging it tightly, tears leaking from my eyes. "It hurts, it hurts so much. It's as if there is a hole in my heart slowly eating away at me. I wish that he would come sooner so I could leave this life forever. I don't want to reconcile with them, they don't care about how I feel, they never have and never will." I curled in on myself, sobs wracking my body. I am consumed by my thoughts of sorrow and self pity.

AN:Poor baby~ Better times are approaching, so do not fret~ This is going slower than I expected~ I wanted to make this story a rather quick intro to the concepts of the main story, since I wasn't really sure how everything could be explained, plus I want to write some fluff here and there~! Sorry for the short chapters~ The chapter titles are kinda restricting, but it's for the best since school starts next week~ My goal is to be at least three chapters ahead of the published chapters, incase I have issues with time management~ See you next week~