You And Me

five.

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It had been a dreadfully boring Tuesday when I had unwittingly admitted that I liked you. I had nothing else to do and I thought that trying to strike up a conversation with you was better than nothing, save for the embarrassment I was going to receive if something went wrong with my attempt at trying to converse with you.

hiiiiii :)

I mentally slapped myself as I sent you that message. Of all the decent greetings I could've given you, an h with a lot of is and a smiley face just had to be what I would type in.

It took you around two minutes to answer back, and by then my face couldn't have gotten anymore hotter.

Parker : hi

I started to panic as I noted in your reply. No smiley face. No caps on the h. No trace of friendliness or meanness whatsoever in your message.

Just like your facial expressions, your messages could also be considered unreadable.

My heart in my throat, I went for what passed as a very Me message to send.

whatcha doin'?

Believe or not, I could be very hyper in my messages. I was just keeping it to a minimum when it was you I was talking to.

Parker : just lying down. you?

I closed my eyes and tried to envision you lying down, probably clad in shorts or pants and a white shirt, before typing in a reply.

really bored. want to play Twenty Questions?

I was a very curious person, and I figured Twenty Questions would keep me occupied for at least fifteen minutes or so.

Parker : Sure.

Cool. Who goes first?

Parker : you.

It was amazing how you could do one word answers, twice in a row. I, being a naturally chatty person, would never have been able to do that automatically.

Alright. What's your favorite color?

Your answer was immediate this time.

Parker : too many to mention

State some colors, then.

I wanted to get to know you better, more seriously this time.

Parker : Black...

I had long since forgotten what other colors you liked. All I could remember was black, and how we both liked the color black, and how black was the first color you had thought of putting.

Okay then :) Your turn.

Parker : Why are you afraid of Bryan?

Right then and there, I knew you were a guy who liked to dive in headfirst, without looking both sides. I guess that would be called recklessness by many, but for me, I called it straightforward.

We continued on like that for about four minutes (and a few seconds) when you finally decided to ask me the question I had been dreading ever since school began.

Parker : Who's your crush?

I answered right away.

Someoneeee :)

Parker : Who?

You. just... someone xD

Parker : I'm asking you who he is.

I sighed.

Myself.

Parker : Tsk. just stop stalling and tell me.

I made up my mind then.

Alright. But promise me you won't laugh or avoid me when I answer your question.

My reply was obvious enough to tell you who my crush was. But you were apparently too dense to get what I mean, because you replied with a Yeah, sure.

You.

I was expecting some kind of "Really?" or a "Why me?", but all you said was

Parker : Ok.

Your Ok had broken my heart that time, believe it or not. Maybe it was because of the lack of emotion or whatever; I didn't even know why myself back then.

But now I know. It was the fear of not being given a chance to be with you. With that Ok, you somehow gave my mind and heart an answer, which was a negative one. I felt like crying back then. Call me a crybaby or whatever, but it was really and only you who could make me feel this way. The first.

Right then and there, I decided to end the conversation quickly.

I have to go already :) See you tomorrow!