Royal Atticates

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i woke up at 3 in the morning ....i felt like i slept a lot. but i decided to sleep again but i was unable to do so. so i got up and roamed around in my room and suddenly i remembered all events from the past ....

( outfit of night dress on the side)

i bet everyone is calm but from the inside they have too many emotions........i felt guilty for what i had done to my friends..and i feel guilty to be myself...i have everything but not a happy life ......

i opened the door and walked around in the house for some peace of mind ....unfortunately i wanted an answer . that was my decision correct or was it hurting. i am not guilty for anyone but only for my friendship that i have ruined .....my life would have been much easier than before if only selena didn't attented that call from london or i could have switched off my phone or anything else which could have been done to stop all this shit.

but the bitter truth is that now i am here and i will have to be here because of my father. for my people but the worst part is that noone asked for what i wanted .they simply didnt helped me when i wanted help. only if i was told this before maybe i could have enjoyed my few days of freedom,fun,enjoyment with my friends. maybe i would come prepared to leave all this which includes my friends my city my life...........

but now i am just a puppet . a royal puppet....

i really want to punch my mom in the face because if she was able to rule properly then i was not needed..

i hovered around in the garden there i looked at the shining stars in the sky....i could smell freshly bloomed flowers but then i looked at my right and i saw .......was unexpected . i saw miley walking alone ......was she awake? i rushed up to her and held her hand . we were now perfectly walking like best friends. she didnt make any eye contact she just turned her face ...and asked me " what are you doing here ?" 

" i can also ask you the same.." i said while looking at the ground...

for a moment there was perfect sileance between us.......and i enjoyed it...because we spoke things from our actions that we couldnt speak from words......and today we were not those fun filled besties . we were that true besties which people could hardly get.... and i am glad i have not only one but two.

"do u know selena is still not asleep?" she asked emotionlessly

"no......" i replied

" she is crying......very badly" she sighed and bit her lip after that .

i looked up into her eyes and stopped walking........and i was like really?

"u should go and meet her...." she said 

yes i spoke but what about you?

" i am fine but she is not ........" she said while patting my back.

i ran fast and knocked on her door recieveing no reply.......

i knocked again and again until i heard some footsteps coming near the door "who's there?" she said in a cracked voice which totally showed how bad she was crying...

i asked" selena it's me ... i .... want you to let me come in" i ordered

" no......go to sleep i am also sleeping i .......i...i want you to go to bed right now!" she said as she aneezed.

" no i am not going before i enter your room !" i panicked

" no it's too late! and why are you still awake you should be in your bed !" she showted

i panicked in anger" i can ask you the same selena......." i said as i realised that i should be a bit sweet so i aid normally" selena i know that we both didnt slept for the same reason but maybe if u let me in , we can discuss it and comfort each other?"

as i said it she opened the door and sat at the corner of her bed..i sat near her putting my arms around her and giving her a small smile ....

she looked at the ground then suddenly hugged me " nan promise me that u wont forget me" she said while crying a little.i rubbed circles on her back and said " shhh......calm down and i promise i will never forget you both......" 

for a moment there was the same slence which me and miley shared whille holding hands but here we shared it while hugging......

she got back into her normal place and said " today must be tiring for u ? " " yes .... " i said while making no contact  with her eyes .

" you must sleep then........" she said as she laid me down on her bed and putting covers on me 

i felt uneasy but too tired to get up so before i slept i remembered miley coming in between and we sharing a perfect sleep of true friendship......

that is the only reason why i love them and they love me cause before we were some besties but today i realized that we were true best friends forever.........