Moonlight In A Dark Sky

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Ariana held Anthony close in one arm and with the other squeezed Sean tightly as she cried into his chest. Sean held on to her, scared that if he didn't her legs wouldn't be able to support her body anymore.

She was sad, mad, frustrated, confused, she was feeling so many different emotions. Why would something like this happen to such an innocent baby. She didn't understand, she wanted answers that no one had, and she had to deal with it. She was going to lose the baby girl she was once so excited to meet.

Sometimes it's hard to pray
Sometimes it's hard to stay grateful
It's painful, hurts so bad
Sometimes it's hard to breathe
Gets hard to keep goin'
We keep holdin' on to what could have been

Dr. Fowler took a step back from the incubator after she finished taking ask the tubes and wires away and it was just their baby girl laying in the incubator.

"The process could take a few minutes or a few hours, so you can pick her up and hold her if you would like." She told them.

Sean took a step towards her, Ariana still clinging on tightly to him, he wipped the tears from his face and really looked at her, he could see her chest moving up and down fighting to breath. All he could think of was all the things they could've done together as just father & daughter, as a family, what she could've looked like growing up. But soon she would be taking her last breath everything he wanted to do with her as a father was being ripped away from him. Anthony was having his sister, his twin ripped away, Ariana was having someone that grew inside of her that she expected would be her daughter someone she could dress up as a mini me was being taken away.

But we'll get by
We'll see the light
In the morning
It's gonna be alright
The circumstance
Is in the plan
Even if we don't fully understand
Why the bad things happen to the good people

Ariana de-clung herself from Sean and watched as they got closer. She was hardly moving, the only mouvement being her chest rising and falling. Ariana was scared to put Anthony in the incubator with her because she was so small, but she also knew that this would the first and last time that they could ever be together.

Sometimes it's hard to pray
I know sometimes it's hard to be patient
Ooh I hate it
Yeah it hurts so bad
Sometimes it's hard to believe
So hard to keep goin'
We keep holdin' on to what could have been

A

nthony whimpered in Ariana's arms, his still restless so Ariana thought that if she were to put his sister maybe he would calm down. Ariana laid him down in the incubator next to her. When Anthony was set down next to his sister, he quickly calmed down as he turned his head to the side and saw her. It was so amazing to see just how great of a bond twins have already at such a young age. More tears came from Ariana as she watched her two babies together, Anthony managed to grab a hold of his twins hands and held it. Her heart broken even more for Anthony, he's losing his best friend, the one person he was closest to. After a whole day of restless crying and screaming, it only took 2 seconds of being his twin to calm down and eventually fall asleep next to her.

So much pain
It's still a lesson
Sometimes it rains
It's still a blessing
You never see the silver lining
In the cloud
And so you doubt it
You never know how much you truly have

"Holding the baby could the process better for both you and the baby," Dr. Fowler told them

"Come on Ari," Sean said taking a step closer to the incubator "hold her."

"N-no," Ariana said taking a step away and wrapping her arms around herself "I can't"

Sean understood why she didn't want to, why she couldn't. Holding her Ariana would get attached she would create this bond with her like she did with Anthony when she first held him. It would make it so much more harder than it already it is.

"Can I just pick her up?" Sean asked the doctor, she nodded her head

He gently picked her up, scared he might hurt her. Anthony whimpered in his sleep when lost contact. He held her in his arms, holding back the tears. He was looking down at her and she was looking right back up at him. It was like it was only the both of them no one and nothing but them.

Until you go without it
One day its gonna turn into another season
Your gonna see that
All your tragedy
You had was for another reason
Its just a temporary goodbye
So ya gotta keep ya head high
The rain is coming down and its pouring
But joy is gonna come inside the morning

Sean took a seat in the rocking chair, with her still in his arms. He held her gently like she could break at any second. Now that he was holding he never wanted to put her down, to let her go, he didn't want her leave so soon. There's was soon much he wanted to experience with her.

But he knew what was coming he knew he would never experience those things with her, he had to say goodbye. He knew she was suffering and that was the last thing he wanted.

"It's okay," He whispered to her, tears falling freely "heaven couldn't wait for a sweet angel like you." He whispered gently kissing the hand that was holding to his finger

"I love you so much"

Her grip on his finger loosened her eyes closed and her breathing was slowing down, her struggle for breath stopped.

But we'll get by
(Bye)
We'll see the light
(Yeah)
In the morning its gonna be alright
(It's gon be ok baby)
The circumstance
(The lord got ya)
Is in the plan
(And I gotcha)
Even if we don't fully understand
Why the bad things
Happen to the good people