Jariana: The unreachable

Chapter 4

Chapter 4:

Liz doesn’t realise me bursting into tears until I start screaming at her, knocking her right out of her daydream “how could you?” I snap fiercely. “Oh let me guess you are going to pretend like you already knew this guy like you could have a chance with him” Liz shouts harshly. “How did you find out about Jai anyway?” not giving up this battle. “I watched all the janoskian videos and fell in love with Jai” Liz shouts instantly. “And I suppose he tweeted you saying he wanted you to be his future wife and that he loved you” I say cleverly. “No?” Liz says trying to hold back her tears of confusion.

“Break it up! Break it up” Dan says sprinting over to us just as we are about to start physically hurting each other. A blur of Liz’s thist flying towards my face gets stopped by Dan quickly grabbing me down. “Girls what is up with you? You need to start filming in a minute and don’t think that you can bloody well act like that. Don’t make things harder for me or yourselves as they already are” Dan rants coldly and a sense of general fear strikes me incase he fires me so I hold my chin up high and stop the tears, I can save them for home.

There is fithteen minutes left of break till shooting starts again so I guess I should go and look at my script scrolling to my dressing room and as soon as I am locked in alone I feel the urge to cry because no one is here and no one can judge me right now. I need to hold in my upset else I will no doubt be called weak. “Ariana” Victoria’s gentle voice says outside of my room “is everything okay today?” “Yes” I lie “do you want me to come in?” she replies. “No its okay” I mumble trying cover up the sad tone in my voice. “Okay” she says and I hear her heels walking away. Why did she come? She doesn’t normally care. Just then I hear another knock on the door.

“Go away” I immediately say. “It is Michael your makeup artist” a soft voice says. I sigh wipe my eyes and open the door. “What shall we do to your pretty face this afternoon?” He smiles. “Nothing” I grumpily speak. He looks hurt and I don’t know why but I don’t say anything else. “Going to look at your lines before shooting?” Michael bursts out. “Hmm” I nod.

“Oh no” I gasp. “What?” Michael is taking by my surprise because of my sudden reaction to my script for this afternoon. “I have to act best friends will Liz” Michael doesn’t understand because for all he knows we already are best friends “oh” he smiles. “Don’t smile!” I snap at him breaking down. “Ariana stop you are ruining your makeup” “screw makeup” I angrily get up and quickly shove loads of stuff into my bag “Ariana wait...” Michael obviously is looking out for me he probably knows what might happen if I keep acting this way. “Wait for what?” “You only have to do a little more filming today” I sigh and sit back down still full of anger and still worried about working with Liz but it’s not like Michael is going to understand, we is just my makeup artist after all.

No matter how much makeup I have on my face I still look sad and same with Liz. I feel like a complete zombie. People probably think it’s crazy even after breaking up with Graham I managed to play my character Cat fine and I only seen videos of Jai and his twitter and photos and oh my he is perfect but I have to remember he loves Liz and even though we hadn’t met or had any bond I feel like I am being stabbed and looking at Liz makes me feel sick. She didn’t even believe me when I say that Jai seemed to have loved me.

“Take one” Dan says smiling. Suddenly making me jump that we have unexpectedly started filming. “Jade and I made a giraffe ha ha ha” I giggle trying to play Cat well to prove to Dan I am not as bad as he thinks. “The giraffe that I am going to rip up” Liz says being Jade while evilly laughing in character. “Why?” I say looking rather shocked. “Cut!” “Ariana you aren’t acting well enough” “take two” Dan says before I can even reply to his insulting words. “Jade and I made a giraffe ha ha ha” I repeat. “Cut!” Dan says. “What am I doing wrong?” I scream at Dan. “Take three” Dan shouts totally ignoring me. “Jade and I made a giraffe ha ha ha” I say not as cat at all you can hear the anger rising throughout my voice. “Cut!” Dan screeches. I won’t stand for this and I am so fuming I don’t even think before I shout to Dan “I would be able to act better if I had a better director.”

He turns very red and says “take four” I shake my head in disapproval of how heartless and stupid Dan is being. My anger is just too high and I walk out. “Ariana come back here” I hear Dan’s irritated voice in the background. “No” I mumble trying to hold myself together for at least till I get out of here. “If you dare walk out of that door you are fired girl, I mean it. Fired from nickelodeon.” Not even that stops me I carry on stomping out the door not caring at this point in time if I am fired or not, like they can fire me. Who would play Cat Valentine?

I find it a struggle driving home. My tears blur up the road but they are angry tears and tears of regret. So many questions bugger my head. Have I made a mistake? Walking out of my job. Dan really means it doesn’t he? I am fired and I can’t go back. Oh my what will I tell mum when I get home? She will be so disappointed in me. And all over a stupid boy if it weren’t for that stupid Jai then I wouldn’t be in this situation I would be happy and filming right now. Suddenly my phone beeps and it is a DM from Jai. His words shock me and before I know it my hands slip from the driving wheel of the car and I feel myself slipping, slipping, slipping away.