Diana. (Book 1)A One Direction fan fiction.

Chapter 21 - Wake Up, Love

"He's your father?" I hear Zayn's shocked voice yell through the phone. I told Cheryl last night and since then I've been hiding in my room at the X Factor house.

"Who told you?" I ask quietly.

"No one, I was coming back to get my jacket and heard you talking to Cheryl. Why didn't you tell me, Di?" He asks, his voice calming down.

"Tell you what? That my own father was trying to kill me?" My voice cracks and tears start to well in my eyes just thinking about it. "He didn't get the chance, instead he killed the only family I had left."

"You have me." Zayn tells me.

"He took everything away from me that day. He may be locked up but he will always haunt me." I say and let a tear fall down my face. "He will always be in my nightmares."

"I'm here." I realize that Zayn's voice isn't coming through the phone anymore, it's coming from the door to my room that is now open, revealing a worried looking Zayn. I stand up, breathless, watching as Zayn comes up to me, wrapping his arms around me, lifting me up off the ground. We end up sitting on my bed as far away from each other as we can get. "His last request before being put in jail, was for me to go to his hearing to see him. Turns out that it's the hearing that I'm supposed to testify in to put child abuse and rape on his sentence that already has two counts of murder, two counts of manslaughter, drug abuse and abuse to my mother. He's an awful man and I grew up around him, no wonder I'm so screwed up."

"When's the hearing?" He asks.

"Umm during the week off. It's tomorrow actually." I reply and play with the corner of my pillow that sits on my lap as I lean my back on the headboard with my legs stretched out.

"Is anyone going to be there with you?" Zayn asks and I finally look up at him.

"Not that I know of. I want someone there, for support but a part of me feels like I need to do this alone." I tell him quietly. "I'm leaning on having someone there and Cher agreed to go last night."

"I'll go if you want me to." Zayn tells me softly, leaning forward, placing his hand just above my ankle. I nod slightly and go back to playing with the pillow.

"I haven't seen my mum in 10 months tomorrow. I left home on March 12th 2010. She's going to be there tomorrow." I say mindlessly.

"And what about your dad?" Zayn asks softly.

"I haven't seen him in two years. When I told you about what happened with everything in my past. My parents already divorced. My mum got remarried a month of two after my dad ran off. And Jake, my best friend who died, we umm, we were everything we wanted to be, to the point where we almost for engaged. The day I lost him, it was bad but it wasn't the worst day of my life. The day I lost my brother was the worst day of my life. He was more than just my brother, he was like the dad I never had. He grew up before he should've because he was taking care of me, making sure I would have a good life. Lucas reminded me so much of Tyler. Lucas and I, we umm. Never mind I can't talk about this." I wipe all the tears from my eyes and stand up, zipping up my bag, place my clothes that I'm going to wear for court the next day. Zayn places his hand on my shoulder, gently turning me around and then he wraps his arms around me, letting me cry into his shoulder. "I'm so sorry."

"You have nothing to be sorry for." He whispers in my ear.

"I lead you on, I let you into my messed up life. Louis was right. He was right, I'm scared to admit that I have real feelings for you." I say through my tears, I didn't mean to tell him that I have real feelings for him. He wasn't supposed to know.

"What? Real feelings?" Zayn pulls away from the hug and places his finger under my chin to get me to look at him. I nod ever so slightly and Zayn brings his lips down to mine. He moves both of his hands to the sides of my face and mine go to his hips. I tilt my head up more and stand up my tip toes just so I can fully reach his lips. We end up in front of the desk and I end up sitting on it. Zayn stands in front of me, between my legs and continues to kiss me. He places kisses down my jawline and towards my neck, stopping at one spot for a little while.