"tired..."
Harry cuddled Louis to his chest, never letting him go, in all honesty Louis is all he's got left, even though Harry knows Ashton exists still, he doesn't know how they'll act around each other 24/7, plus with His boyfriend living with him.
He won't get the attention he needs.
"Harry.." Louis mumbled, looking up at Harry, "Hey calm down. What's wrong?"
"What're you talking about?" Harry mumbked after taking a heavy breath.
"I can feel your heart beating faster and faster, its worrying me." Louis told Harry, he started rubbing on his stomach and kissing him on the cheek, Harry's breathing started to even out, Louis can feel Harry's regular heartbeat.
"That's it.." Louis mumbled, "much better, yeah?" Harry responded with a nod and Louis smiled.
Harry kissed Louis and ran his fingers through his soft hair as he giggled softly in the heated kiss, he tilted his head back as Louis kissed down his neck.
"You're so sweet.." Louis whispered and Harry bit his lips softly, "god, I'm so sick of waiting."
"Then don't." Harry mumbled, "I don't care."
"This is illegal." Louis reminded the sixteen year old who was rolling his eyes.
"You act like there's going to be a police siren if you touch me right here," Harry placed Louis' hand right on his crotch and Louis gasped, "nothing..no sirens, no megaphone guy telling you to come out with your hands up..just us.."
"Yeah..just us.." Louis chuckled at himself for being so scared, holding himself back from what he wanted to give Harry.
Harry kissed Louis again, but with tongue, he lied back as Louis rolled on top of him.
ding dong.
Louis dropped his head and flopped over Harry's frail body.
"Just us, huh?"
"And blockers..forgot that." Harry smiled.
Louis chuckled, "Who is it!?" He called out, looking at the door from the couch.
"It is I! Kiloni!" She shouted and Harry tightened his grip on Louis' shirt and furrowed his eyebrows.
"Why is she here?" He asked.
"She's my friend, friend visit each other, right? Like you and..what's his name Luke, Liam?"
"They live together." Harry mumbled.
"I'm coming!" Louis shouted, "play nice." He said to Harry who was scowling.
"I won't." Harry grumbled.
"Please baby.." Louis whispered, squeezing Harry's thigh
"Okay, okay, okay..get off me."
Louis walked towards the door and rubbed his neck, knowing that there are various hickies lingering on his neck.
"Hey, curly!" Louis smiled and Harry's head popped up from behind the couch.
"Hey fringy!" She greeted, giving Louis a hug and looking behind Louis to see Harry scowling at them both, "hey curly number two!"
"I'm number one. You're number two. I'm always number one." Harry corrected before turning away from her.
Louis chuckled softly, "he's been having a rough week."
"Oh I sure have..real rough, you know? Its like I was being bent over and-"
"So!" Louis interrupted.
He glared at Harry and is confused to why he was like this, yesterday he was his angel, just a few minutes they were cuddling and now Harry is all of a sudden snarky and rude?
"I wanted to chill with you guys for a bit!" She smiled, "woah look at those hickies did I do that?" She asked quietly but Harry heard her, he wasn't the fighter but he was about to pounce.
Louis rubbed his neck, "I uh..I..no. Don't know?" He stuttered and Harry walked towards the two wrapping his arms around Louis waist and he has several hickies as well, two on his chest and one on his neck.
"What's a hickey, Lou?" Harry pouted, Louis looked down at Harry and squinted his eyes at him while Harry winked, "Hm? What's a hickey?" Harry mumbled and Louis huffed.
"Its a love bite, you get it anywhere someone kisses you at..for a long time." Louis told Harry like the idiot he is, but if Harry wants to act clueless then he will too.
"Can you give me one?" Harry asked.
"Harry."
"You love me..don't you, big brother ?" Harry asked, lowering his voice on big brother.
"You're too young." Louis mumbled and Harry tightened his grip.
"Should I go?" Kiloni asked with a pout and both boys shrug with a head tilted to the side,"Yeah we'll hang tomorrow." She said giving Louis a hug and a quick kiss on the lips, Harry stepped back with clenched fist and closed eyes.
Harry didn't open his eyes until she left.
"Harry.."
"She gave you a hickey before?" Harry asked softly.
"Yeah." Louis answered softly and Harry looked down.
"Oh..that's nice." Harry mumbled, Louis grabbed Harry's hand before he walked away.
"Harry it wasn't like that, please."
"No, its fine, I'm just your little brother I don't know why I was so stupid to believe that we could actually get somewhere..with me being a minor."
"Haz, we were just a bit tipsy from the night before."
"A bit tipsy." Harry repeated with a bitter chuckle, "you know what. I don't care. I'm real tired of it, you don't want me, you want someone more mature and capable of taking care of themselves and you, I can't do that.."
"Don't be so overdramatic Harry it didn't mean anything!" Louis started to shout causing Harry to heat up.
"You're supposed to be with me! Are you blind!? Don't you get it!?" Harry shouted and Louis tilted his head.
"I don't understand.." He said
"I'm in love with you." Harry whispered, "I don't love you, I'm in love with you..like, I need you Louis and..god, I.." Harry tugged at his hair and started to breathe heavily.
"Harry I -"
"Save it. Please.." Harry mumbled. Louis grabbed Harry's face and looked st him closely, "get off me." Harry said sternly.
"I don't know how I feel Harry.. Please give me some to adjust to whatever we have. I don't know what to do and god, I feel like such a dick!" Louis' voice cracked and Harry placed his hands over Louis'
"You know I love you so much..and if there's something beyond that then that's how I feel too..I wouldn't picture myself being with someone other than you."
"I keep hurting you..I see it and I hate it..I feel like its my fault and.." Louis teared up and shook his head, stepping away from the sixteen year old.
"Louis?" Harry called out softly, Louis stepped back once more before turning around quickly and running out the door walked, leaving Harry in the silent house.
So alone.
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louis' so afraid to cry :(
qotc ; what do you think is the reason louis has trouble with his feelings ?
