"blue..."
"Okay tell me what happened."
"He just walked out on me, Ash!" Harry told his older brother over the phone, Louis' been gone for hours, Harry's worried to death, he doesn't want to lose Louis like he lost Ashton.
He doesn't want to find anyone else.
He just wants his Louis.
His special Louis.
"Do you need me to come get you?" Ashton asked, "are you okay, boo?"
Harry was crying, but not loud enough for Ashton to hear though.
"N-no..he'll be back in a few minutes I'm sure of it.." Harry told Ashton, staring at the door worryingly, "he should be.." He whimpered.
"Alright, little one..call me if you need anything alright?" Harry hummed 'mhm' in a response and hung up, sitting on the floor in front of the door like a dog waiting for his owner to get home.
Sad, but true.
Louis had Harry wrapped around his finger.
For what seemed like an eternity Harry saw the door handle jiggle, Harry was now wide awake and alert, he can hear incoherent mumbling of curse words and he knew it was Louis.
The door slung open and revealed a drunk Louis.
It was Louis, but not Harry's Louis.
"Lou.." Harry called out brokenly, standing up to his feet with a nervous smile.
Louis sighed softly and closed the door, walking around Harry and into the kitchen.
"Louis." Harry mumbled, watching Louis reach through the refrigerator, "please tell me you're okay?"
Louis finally looked at Harry and gave him a sloppy lopsided grin.
"I'm fine.." He slurred, "no need..to worry and stuff."
Harry furrowed his eyebrows, "no need to worry? You've been gone for hours just get drunk off your bum!"
"Still pissed off, but too good to cuss." Louis teased, "church boy Harry, yeah?"
"No." Harry said.
"Oh yeah. You're oh so ready to get fucked up that tight ass of yours but you're too good to cuss out once." Louis pointed out, shaking his head, "you're not ready babe."
"Don't tell me what I'm ready for!" Harry shouted, walking up to Louis.
"Just did. You're not ready for sex, you little sixteen year old." Louis said, leaning closer to Harry's face.
"Such a sixteen year old but look at the twenty one year old giving him hickies everyday of the week." Harry fired back, "sounds a bit hypocritical since you're the one who wants me so bad."
Louis bit his lip and looked at Harry, "Like right now."
Harry stepped away from Louis and looked at him with squinted eyes.
"God, I wanna fuck you so bad right now." Louis said to him, reaching out and yanking him closer.
"Louis, you're drunk." Harry said worringly, but just squeaks out when Louis picks him up and pushes him against the refrigerator.
"I'm tipsy, there's a difference." Louis told Harry, kissing him on his cheek.
"Put me down." Harry mumbled, "I don't want you- it like this.." Harry said, turning his head away, "I don't like it."
Louis kissing on Harry anyways, squeezing at his bum and pushing up against him.
"Louis!" Harry whined, "No! I'm saying no!"
Harry teared up when Louis didn't stop, Louis was certainly not tipsy, he was completely drunk.
"You said you wouldn't go farther than what I wanted, Lou!" Harry said, pushing Louis hard as he could.
Louis came to a halt, its like he froze in his spot, his face was still in Harry's neck and he was breathing quite heavily.
"Harry I'm sorry.." Louis whispered, "fuck. I'm so sorry, baby boy I didn't mean to-"
"You just had to go out and get drunk yeah?" Harry whimpered, "you hate me that much?"
"Don't you fucking dare." Louis snapped, pointing at Harry, "Don't ever say anything like that in your life, I love you..hell, I'm in love with you."
"What.." Harry whispered.
"I'm in love with you..your deep right dimple and your soft left one, the little giggle you do when you're shy, the way you talk so soft and deep, your mesmerizing green eyes..your plump pink lips. I've been taking care of you for three years and out of my twenty one years of living I am confirming my feelings for you..I'm so sure about how I feel about you, Harry Styles I am so in love with you...I swear.."
Harry was shocked, he didn't expect that. It felt like he was going to cry at any moment, it isn't much but its a fucking start. It's now confirmed Louis has other emotions besides sassy, snarky, and moody.
"Are you sure?" Is what Harry asked,"I don't want to feel like I just guilt tripped you and you're already drunk."
"Shut up." Louis chuckled, putting Harry down but still hugging him, "I sobered up when I confessed." Harry kissed Louis' nose and smiled at him softly, "I wonder what I would've done without you.."
"..I would've been dead..if we weren't together..or worse..raped." Harry whispered.
"Don't.." Louis whispered, shuddering at the thought..the feeling of being forcefully touched, pounded into without your consent.
The thought?
No. It's the memory.
Sadly remembering every detail of that night, countless the marks on your skin, the harmful names you've been called and no matter what.
You can't forget it..
You won't..
"Louis?" Harry called out softly, stroking his cheek, "Hey calm down..breathe.."
"I'm fine babe. I'm okay.."
Harry looked at Louis questioningly even though he smiled Harry didn't believe him.
"I-I..do you not trust me?" Harry asked.
"What?" Louis scoffed, "I do..of course I do!"
Harry stepped back, "then why won't you tell me anything? I have to force it out of you. I practically beg."
"Harry, do you know how overdramatic you are? Last year I coughed once and you were about to take my keys and drive me to the hospital."
"..y-you looked sick, I was preventing things before they happened." Harry defended with a pout and Louis chuckled, Harry didn't smile or laugh back though, "Louis please..I don't like when you bottle up your emotions from me.."
"I'll tell you when I'm ready." Louis said and Harry just looked up at him, neither agreeing or disagreeing.
"I wonder when that'll be." Harry mumbled, shrugging Louis off and walking down the hall to his room only leaving Louis to think about his actions from the past few minutes.
"I'm sorry." Louis whispered to himself, "I'm sorry..you're dealing with a fuck up like me."
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larry's been fucking me up these past few days..those assholes.
qotc ; why can't louis tell harry anything ?
anybody see the similarities between louis and cry baby ? what do you see ?
