I Wanna Be Free, I Wanna Be Loved

Ch. 27: A Heavy Heart On The Boulevard

"Ryan was really pissed at us" I said as we walked around the mall.

"He'll get over it" Rachel said "He always thinks he has to play the dad role since we don't have one but it really just gets annoying. I can take care of myself and so can you"

"Do you think he'll tell your mom about everything?"

"Knowing him he's probably at home playing guitar and feeling sorry for himself because he's such an unbearable ass waffle. Now come on, we have dresses to buy!"

She grabed my arm and brought me into Macy's where we each picked six or seven dresses each to try on. We didn't realy like any of them so we went to an actual bridal/formal event store where we had better luck. We took armfuls of dresses into the small fitting rooms and gasped when we saw each other. She was there in a floor length, black as night strapless gown that looked amazing. I had chosen a short green halter style dress that ended just below my knees.

"YOU HAVE TO GET THAT" we said ast the exact same time.

"I don't know" I said "It makes me feel fat"

"You're not fat, you skinny bitch. I'm fat!"

"Oh please, you're just curvy. You're freakin' gorgeous, Rachel. Especially your eyes, they're so damn big. The only big thing about me is my boobs" I said as I squeezed them together.

"What size are you?" she asked.

"38 D" I admitted. 

"Me too!" she squealed "Boobie twins for life!"

We giggled as the other girls in the store just stared at us; Rachel and I had the best friendship in the world. On Saturday mornings we would sit around in the living room eating Reese's Puffs cereal and watching Spongebob. I always forgot that she was a year older than me and was going off to college in the fall, just like Ryan. At least Spencer and Brendon were in my grade so I'd still have friends at school next year but it wouldn't be the same without all of us. It would definitely be difficult for Rachel and Brendon but I'm sure they would make their relationship work, I loved them both so much and they loved each other.

"What do you say we pay for these and go pacify our mammary protrusions with some lunch?" I asked.

"Yay eating!" she laughed.

We paid and went to Panda Express where we both got a Panda Bowl with chow mein and beef & brocolli. We ate and decided to call Brendon and Spencer to see if they wanted to hang out. Rachel and I drove home to drop off our dresses so that our dates wouldn't see them and found Ryan in his room.

"We're gonna go hang with the guys. Later, asswad" Rachel said.

"Yeah, peace out dickmuffin" I added.

He said nothing but neither of us cared. Whatever feelings I had for him had totally and completely evaporated last night. We drove to Brendon's house before going to Spencer's. I raced up to the front door and greeted him with a kiss. This boy was perfect, more perfect than Ryan, and if I ended up dating him instead I'd be happier.

"So what's on the agenda for today?" Brendon asked from the back seat where he and Rachel had been exchanging body heat.

"Well Hannah has never been to Disneyland, so..." Spencer said.

"Aww Spence you kn ow we can't go to Disney without Ry. We may be mad at him but he'd be even more heart broken if we went" Rachel said

"Good point, we'll save that for next weekend" Spencer smiled.

"But what about today?" I asked.

"MINI GOLF!" Brendon said excitedly.

"You just like mini golf because you're short!" Rachel joked.

"Hey! What I lack in height I make up for in other things" he purred as he sucked on Rachel's neck. She moaned as he hands rested on her thighs. They locked lips and she ran her fingers through his hair; Spencer cleared his throat and I guess they remembered they were in the car with us.

"So yeah, mini golf?" Brendon panted.

"To mini golf!" I exclaimed.