I Wanna Be Free, I Wanna Be Loved

Ch. 22: Blink Back To Let Me Know

HANNAH'S POV

After basically stealing Ryan's car, I called up his friend Spencer to ask if he wanted to hang out for the day, he said sure and I met up with him at his house. The events of the past twelve hours led me to an emotional breakdown. I cried on the entire drive from my house to Spencer's and when I got there I was still crying. I rang the door bell and Spencer quickly answered, immediately wrapping me into a hug.

"Hannah what happened?" he asked.

I mumbled and cried into his chest, none of my words formed a coherent story. He picked up my chin and forced me to look into those iced blue eyes of his. He took me by the hand and led me into the house where we sat down on the couch and he wiped my tears away with a tissue. He kept cleaning my face until I was calm enough to tell him everything that happened.

"Oh wow, that's intense" he said when I finished my story.

"Has he ever been like this with other girls?" I asked.

"No actually. He's usally the lady killer but you...you've been a challenge for him"

"Oh god"

"He really likes you, Hannah"

"I KNOW!" I shouted "EVERYONE KEEPS TELLING ME THAT BUT NO ONE UNDERSTANDS THE CONSEQUENCES THAT THIS COULD BRING. I LIKE HIM TOO, I LIKE HIM SO MUCH I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO ABOUT IT. I WANT HIM BUT I CAN'T DATE HIM, I JUST CAN'T"

Did I just confess my feelings for Ryan to his best friend? Oops. Oh well, it was bound to come out sooner or later, and Rachel already kind of knew. I just couldn't bring myself to admit it to the one person who actually mattered in all of this. I started crying again and fell into Spencer's arms. He rubbed my back as I cried and when I stopped, he just held me.

"So I know this is shitty timing but would you like to go to formal with me?"

I looked up at him, he was smiling. He was really cute with his messy brown hair, cute chubby cheeks, and those eyes.

"I would love to"

"Awesome! We should go see a movie or play mini golf. A littel pre-formal get to know you date"

"Sure!" I said happily.

I went to the bathroom to touch up my make up before Spencer and I went out for an early dinner together. Screw Ryan, screw my feelings for him, and screw his feelings for me. I was out with an equally amazing boy and nothing was going to interrupt this date...except a phone call from the shunned one himself.